Save Me. {A Joe Sugg FanFiction}

twenty-one

Joe's POV

I get to the hospital in about 20 minutes. I park my car and run inside.
'Can you tell me which ward Emma Matthews is in please?' I ask as politely as I can.
The lady takes her time turning from tapping on the computer to face me.
I tap my fingers on the desk top impatiently.
'And who are you in relation to Emma?' She says, lazily.
'Her brother.' I lie.
She nods.
'You'll need to go down the hall to the elevator and she's on level 3 ward A.' She says, turning back to her tapping as soon as she's finished showing me.
I thank her and begin to run down the hall.
'No running please!' She shouts after me.
I stop running and walk as quickly as I can to the elevator.

Emma's POV

The bed is scratchy against my bare back. It's one of those hospital gowns with an open back.
The heart monitor is beeping.
Beep, beep, beep, beep.
Alexa had to go to work.When I fainted on the road they called 999 and Alexa so happened to be walking down the street to her new job when she saw. She did everything. She knows how to deal with me when I have attacks this bad.
I'm about half awake and my head is throbbing.
Apparently it's not just anxiety it's a symptom of something.. I'm yet to find out. They've sent my brain track and heart beat to a lab to analyse. I have no idea how long I've been here, the only time Alexa left me (apart from now) was to make a phone call to someone - I have no idea who. I just heard my name. I hope to fucking god it's not Joe. I can't deal with seeing him right now. He broke my heart and... I have a feeling he was the one who made me panic. When I knew I could trust him, even the thought of him calmed me down. But now I know I can't trust him, my chest tightens and a sinking feeling falls through my stomach.
I hear feet racing along the corridor outside and the door bursts open.
I hear a deep voice panting and I pretend to be asleep.
Footsteps pad over to the bed and I can feel someone leaning over me.
Soft, tender lips connect with mine and my eyes shoot open.
Joe.
'Joe? What the fuck?' I yell.
He immediately springs back and look at the floor in embarrassment.
'I needed to see if you were ok. Alexa called and-' I cut him off.
'Ugh I don't want to see you Joe! Can't you get that into your thick brain?' I shout at him, no doubt people can hear me outside.
'I know, I know. I just want you to listen.' Joe says calmly.
A burst of anger shoots through my stomach and I feel the need to punch something.
'No Joe, you listen. I trusted you! I opened out to you. Fuck, even Alexa doesn't know I still self harm! Don't you see Joe? I'm just another girl that you think your in love with but you're really not. I'm not the kinda girl guys fall in love with. You don't understand what I have been through! Day after day, it's like I wake up to try and survive. What's the point of living? Well, for a while it was you. But now I know that you're just another boy who can stoop so low as to cheating. Especially with some blonde slut like her!' I'm sobbing, tears are pouring down my face. I sniff and wipe them away, not caring what I look like.
'Emma.. I do know how you feel. When my sister was 16 she got the worst panic attacks. She made herself throw up because she thought she wasn't worthy, she got in with the wrong crowd and she self harmed. I know how to deal with it so for fucks sake I-...' Joe trails off and sighs. I sit in  the hospital bed silently crying while listening to Joe.
'What I did was wrong. But it really was not like that. I.. I missed you and I was scared you didn't want me around and so I went to a club. I got drunk and ended up in the bed of another girl. She stuck with me the whole day. Saying some shit about something I said the night before. I still don't know if it's true or not. I was a coward. I'm sorry. I really can't explain how sorry I am Emma. I love you. I can't let you go that easily. Please, give me one more chance.' He says, his voice cracking and a tear rolling down his cheek.
'Joe I... How do I know I can trust you?' I ask softly.
He gets on his knees busy my bed and takes his hands in his.
'I will prove it Emma. I promise. I will be there for you and one day when you realise you don't love me anymore I will understand but I will still be there. I know I'm never going to stop loving you Emma because - fuck it - I'm in love with you and all I want is for you to stay with me and grow old together.' He whispers, leaning his head on our joined hands.
I don't speak and soon his breathing becomes heavy. I kiss his head and smile.
'I love you Joseph Sugg.' I whisper into his ear, not minding if he can hear me or not.
I lay my head back on the pillow and smile to myself. As soon as I can't fight against the darkening abyss, I close my eyes and fall into a deep, dreamless sleep.
I used to think I knew what love felt like. But only do you know when you're sure you want to spend the rest of your life with them. Only then.