Alpha. Beta. Imagines.

Alec Lightwood

//not requested: you and Alec (TMI) have secret feelings for each other and you overheard him talking to your parabatai (Isabelle) and he thinks that you're uncomfortable around him now. and like have you seen that Jalec sneak-peek where jace puts his hand on Alec's shoulder but he shies away and cant look him in the eye. im using that //

//an: i added a link to the sneak peek and im going to use Alec's reactions and quotes and everything. not everything but yeah. tried to make it like gender neutral cause since alec's gay but my husband so//

i skip over to my parabatai's  room. i had to find alec because there was a mission for us as acting heads of the institute and Hodge wanted to know if we were down to go. i stood in the doorway, raising my arm to knock, when I heard her already in a conversation. I leaned against the doorframe on the side of the door, out of view from whoever she was with.

"just go tell Y/N yourself" isabelle said, sounding like she repeating herself for the umpteenth time.

"we're acting heads of the institute!" alec sighed. "what if i do and then everything is uncomfortable? we're supposed to be professional, we both know that. what if Y/N hates me for mixing my feelings with my responsibility?"

"my parabatai isnt going to hate you. but if you dont say something, i will."

he groaned and left.  I pressed against the side of the wall. He brushed past me, glancing back for a second. he saw me and stopped. "alec..." i started. my heart was leaping out of my chest. i had always had feelings for Alec since i was about 15. hearing that he actually did like me, my heart was pounding in my ears.

he looked at me, embarrassment, shame, and shock was plain on his face. he turned and basically ran away from me. i had to catch him.

i jogged after him, my boots hitting against the tile.

"alec! alec wait." i said, finally able to catch up to him. "hey. there's a diplomatic mission and Hodge wanted to know if were going, if we were switching assignments. acting heads of the institute and all.

"we're on orders to protect jace's girlfriend." he said and kept walking.

"more his responsibility. hey, youre gonna keep an eye on her right?" i put my hand on his shoulder and he shied away from my touch. his eyes dropped to the floor and i sighed. "what is wrong with you?"

"i uh... you, you have every right to be mad at me..." he said softly.

"what did you do? you didnt put my jeans in the hamper did you?" i asked, trying to ease the tension.

"this isnt a joke." he said sternly and i was taken back a little. he licked his lips and spoke again, his voice softer. "in Isabelle's room.. the conversation... what you heard.."

i raised my eyebrows and smiled slightly. "that? that's what this is about?" he nodded slightly, his eyes still missing mine. "you like me. so? i like you too alec." his eyes finally met mine and his lips pulled into a small smile. "i mean, look at you. you're a perfect shot. your green eyes are the brightest thing i have ever seen. your hair is the perfect messy all the time. you're sweet, caring, careful, smart, responsible and reckless at the same time. and now im just rambling." i laughed. "this is whats been up with you? seriously?"

he smiled slightly and shook his head. "yeah. yeah, you're right. i just thought you'd think that-"

"Alec, i really like you. to hell with the rules about leaving emotions out of things. i cant ignore my feelings anymore. i need to hear you say that you feel the same."

"i dont have words to explain how strong my feelings are for you. ever since i was probably 16, i've had feelings for you. the fire in your eyes during battle, the protectiveness you have for all of us, the strength of your character. you're basically the perfect shadowhunter and the perfect person." he gushed and his cheeks turned a bright red. i couldnt help but smile and laugh lightly.

"how about we have a contest." i said, catching his attention. "we're both great with a bow and arrow, so whoever is most accurate out of five shots, decides where we go tomorrow afternoon for a date."

"oh you're on." he smiled. i took his hand and pulled him towards the training room. we rushed past isabelle and she smiled at us.

"god finally." she said with a wink and walked away.