Alpha. Beta. Imagines.

NoHumanity!Stefan PT3

you open your eyes to the Salvatore basement. you look around and see an empty chair, the chains dangling freely.

you try to move and end up getting burned. the chains were coated in vervain.

"let me out!" you shout and yank your arm. you scream out in pain and slump into the chair.

"Y/N." you hear Stefan's smooth voice say through the window.

you look up at him and answer, "stefan, get me out of here."

he sighs and looks down. he opens the door and walks in, shutting it behind him. "I cant... not yet."

"what the hell are you- they got you to turn it back on.." you say unimpressed. "I knew you wouldn't last."

"Y/N, feeling isn't the end of the world. it gives our life a purpose."

you scoff. "purpose. we're vampires, Stefan! we don't have a purpose." you spit out. "all we do is kill. and having to feel bad about it later? no thanks."

"that's not the only thing we can feel." he presses on. you roll your eyes and raise your eyebrows, waiting for him to finish his little speech. "yes, when we feel hurt we feel it worse. but when we love, when we love it cant compare to anything. don't you miss that? don't you miss loving?"

"no. I don't miss any of it." you reply, not sure if you really meant it. you did miss loving him, now that he brought it up. but you couldn't let on. "with love comes heartbreak, come depression. I'm done going through that." you say coldly.

"not all love ends in heartbreak." he says softly, kneeling in front of you and putting a hand over yours.

"Elena did." you sneer. "Katherine did. Valerie did." you were the only one who knew about Valerie.

"yeah... they did." he agrees, nodding his head. "but this one hasnt."

you make a face and think about that. did he love you? "Stefan... you love me?" you question.

"I do." he nods. "I didn't realize it until recently but I do. the way your eyes light up when you laugh, they way you play with your nails when your nervous, they way you sang your brother to sleep when he was little, they way you get excited around puppies and babies." he smiles softly.

"you remember all that stuff?" you ask surprised. you never thought anyone let alone stefan would pay that much attention to you. it felt nice to know he did. wait, felt?

"I do  I also remember that need to sleep with something in your arms or else you wake up alot, your favorite book is The Outsiders because you related to feeling alone in the world, and you love a good fight every now and then."

you smile slightly. "I do love a good rumble."

you sigh and close your eyes. maybe feeling again wouldn't be so bad. you turn your emotions back on and open your eyes again.

"where's Elena?" you ask and he gives you a slight smile. he breaks the locks on the chains and helps you up. you're still a little weak from the vervain but he helps you. he always had.

"she's upstairs with Damon, why?" he asks as you both walked out.

"I think I need to apologize to her." you say and start up the stairs. Elena Gilbert was no saint but even she didn't deserve what you said to her.

you both made your way to Elena and Damon. you dread seeing her, but it had to be done. you were a bitch on the regular but not that bad ever. she deserves an apology.

"Elena.." you start as all of you meet up. Stefan's fingers lave through yours and you lean into him slightly. "I'm really sorry for what I said before. you're not trash... well not totally " you tease.

she smiles and laughs lightly. "it's all good. friends?"

"friends." you smile and yawn.

"you tired?" stefan asks and you nod slightly. you were exhausted still from the vervain. "come on."

you follow stefan up to his room where you both collapse on the bed and fall into a peaceful and sound sleep together.