today was STREssful
ugh just no
I wanted to die because I had a spelling bee today
eventually I was just like, you know what forget it and got out purposely because my hands were shaking and I actually thought I would pass out, no joke.
it was really stressful, though. Like normal people would probably be freaking out too, but not as bad as I was because I'm not normal.
I have mild anxiety and I can't stand being in front of people. It literally makes me want to throw up.
And on top of that, my nana couldn't come because she had stuff she HAD to do.
I've had anxiety since I was in kindergarten. I was especially shy then, but I open up to people that i trust.
Yeah, if you know me, you would NOT believe that I have anxiety, but I do.
I've had it because of childhood nightmares and because I didn't have a good childhood. But that's something I don't want to talk about, maybe another time.
Anyways, because of my anxiety, I get really shaky and nervous over stupid things. I hate it so much.
I also have insomnia. IT WILL BE HELL IF YOU PUT ANXIETY AND INSOMNIA TOGETHER. anxiety is much much worse when you haven't got a good sleep.
anyway, I've been like traumatized the whole day and I think i should TRY to take a nap.
:/ bye
