ALRIGHT TODAY HAS TO BE ONE OF THE WEIRDEST AND SADDEST DAYS OF MY LIFE. LITERALLY NO JOKE
within a radius of two hours, all two (wow) all two of my best friends got a girlfriend/boyfriend.
(They're both girls btw, and one of them is a homosexual so I'm blocking you if you say anything homophobic in the comments :))
and I was the one who helped or at least knew when my friends were getting asked out.
damn this is sad.. I'm playing the little matchmaker here and I'm probably going to be single until I die.
I had my first boyfriend when I was 11.
But I really don't consider it a real boyfriend because he was an idiot.
And all 3 of them that I have had are also idiots, or I was just uncomfortable with the situation.
Wowowow I'm gonna be 14 and I haven't even had a real boyfriend yet
why am I so ugly and fat ???????????
but both of my best friends are goddesses so
anywho enough self-pity
my birthday is this Saturday!!! YAY
I probably seem so young to everyone now that I said my age... whoops
I have one good friend on here that's like 15 or 16 I think I DUNNO she told me her age a while ago
it's
I forget her user
Oh wait
THERE WE GO
yeah
so anyways I'm like so happy for my friends, my one friend I literally hyperventilated over (because she's pansexual and I'm straight so I wasn't like jealous that she has a girlfriend)
But my straight friend I wasn't necessarily jealous of the guy but I'm just jealous of her that she was asked out
I literally like two people right now, both of which will never like me back and the pain is aGONIZING
I had a 2 hour delay today also when every school district expect one called off completely. WTF. #thelogicisrealhere
ugh anyways I feel like crap rn like I'm so sad 😭
Idk I've never really wanted a boyfriend until now maybe it's because I'm a teenager and stuff
what's sad is that I had a chance, recently this one guy asked me out. And it was a guy that I have been friends with for so freaking long. I really wanted to date him so my homosexual friend got me together with him and it lasted 8 hours. NO JOKE. we called him on the phone at like 1 am then at 9 when I got up I was like um.
that's the thing, I think I mentioned this before but I used to not be able to do relationships, because I always let my anxiety get the best of me. I always think that I'm gonna be pressured into doing something (which I knew the guy would never do) or I would completely ruin the relationship (this is why I broke up with him)
I really just feel like a failure during relationship
I have no idea why.
Is anyone else like this?
Let me reiterate it because it wasn't clearly expressed.
I can't date, because of my personal choices. I'm always afraid that something is going to happen because of me and my anxiety always makes me think that.
I'm sorry I feel bad I'm probably getting all
Emotional
