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Stay For Tonight

Kellin's POV

              I woke up in the warm embrace of Victor's arms wrapped around my thin pale body. I slowly get up careful not to wake him. I brush my teeth and start getting ready to go out for warped tour because I have a set in 3 hours. When I finished getting ready I sat down on the couch waiting for the other guys to wake up. All of a sudden everything went black. The thing is im still awake. I can  feel my body moving. I can hear the movie playing. I can feel me cutting myself with a blade just I as felt myself grab it from my back pocket. I can feel the warm liquid running down my arm. I can't stop cutting myself I can't control any of my actions. What the hell is wrong with me? I try to call out for help but when I felt my mouth open but no words came out. I hate this feeling. The feeling that I had completely lost control and there is nothing I can do about it. I feel useless, worthless, and broken. I'm alone and slitting my wrist in the darkness. I feel the corners of my mouth pull upward in a sick twisted smile. I knew what was happening. This is it. Im dying, slowly killing myself against my will but none is here to stop me. "Kellin what the hell are you doing!" I hear Vic's voice scream. I feel my sick twisted smile fall into a sad sorry frown as my vision came back,only to see a sad Victor. His hands covered in my blood and crying out asking why. I felt myself leaning forward I gripped Jaime's shoulder.(who is now next to me.) "I-I lov- love you g-guys." I stuttered out. "Kellin don't fucking talk like that kellin you're okay! You're gonna be okay!"  "Good-b-bye." I slurred blood dripping from my lips. "No baby stay awake ambulance is on there way." He said trying to calm me down. He was now trying to apply pressure to my wounds, but even I know that i'm losing way too much blood. Suddenly I got this overwhelming fear that hes not gonna love me anymore. I dont wanna die with him hating me. "don aye meh." I slurred. "what?" Victor asks. "Dont hate me victurr." I said feeling my head drop. I grabbed Jaime's hands weakly and put them on either side of my head to hold it up. Im not sure why it feels so heavy. "I could never hate you babe, just please stay awake." He said and kissed my lips gently.  I nodded and everything went black again but this time I wasn't awake cus I couldn't hear or feel anything. I plunged into the darkness in which I accepted as death.

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Is Kellin dead? Will Victor just move on? Or will Kellin wake up? Maybe one of them will commit an unforgivable act? Or move far far away? add this story to your library to get the next time I update to find out what happens next.)