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   Kellin's POV

        I wake up good. No more than good...great. I never thought i would ever feel like this towards any boy let alone victor. i try to move but i cant because his arm is around my securely and getting him off would mean waking him up and that's just not something i want to do right now. besides im still tired and im comfortable right here in his arms so silently i smile and drift off to sleep...again.

         "wake up." victor says shaking me violently. "seriously fuck off dude." I say putting the blankets over my face.  "fine ill go to the concert by myself." my head shot up. "What concert?" i ask fully awake.  victor starts laughing. "Whats so funny." I ask curiously. "there is no concert, i just wanted you to get up." he said still laughing.  "your such a dick." i mumbled to him. "look we need to talk about last night dude." victor said to me. my stomach sunk with nervousness. i really did wanna talk about my sexuality ....not only because i was the on who kissed Vic not the other way around....because im not even sure about it myself. I could see he wasn't gonna drop it anytime soon though. I tried to make it seem like i didn't really care about last night. "What about it?" i asked. "well do you lik-like me?" he stuttered nervously. "Of course i like you, you're my best friend." i said trying hard to avoid what he really wanted to know. "Kellin!" he whined. "I don't know if i like you... i might."  " You might? whats that supposed to mean?" he asks. "It means I don't know dude." i snap back. "You don't know but you fucking kissed me last night kellin!" he yelled at me. I just stared at him...hes never yell at me before. "why are u staring at me like that?" he asked. "Because your so damn hot when your upset." i said pulling him into another kiss like the one from last night but better. this kiss surprised us both.

I pulled away.

"I don't like you." i say to him and his eyes drop and look at his hands as if i just broke his heart. i lift his chin ups so he's looking directly in my eyes. "i don't like you because...i think i love you Vic." i said after taking in a shaky breath. I hope i know what im getting myself into here. a tear ran down his cheek. "I think I love you too Kellin." he says and this time its him who pulls me into a kiss that i never want to pull away from.