postcards and Polaroids

Way Down

 Kellin's Pov

           I hear a beeping sound. An annoying one at that. It smells of hand sanitizer and antibacterial spray. I open my eyes to see that I'm in a hospital bed. Then a sudden wave of memories hit me like a truck, then I knew that I failed and that's why Im here.  I feel guilt as I let my mind wander to Vic. My heart monitor starts beeping faster and faster and I notice my breathing pattern had sped up with thoughts of Victor. A Nurse rushed in. I tried to calm myself down but I couldn't. "Wheres Victor?" I ask still hyperventilating. "He's in the waiting room and he will be in to see you when you wake up again." she said turning a small dial above a bag of fluids connected to my IV. I felt my veins run cold. Before I could say something darkness took over me once again.

TWO HOURS LATER 

         I wake up to the same beeping sound and smell as before. I guess i'm not as overwhelmed as before, because the heart monitor stays at the same pace and my breathing doesn't pick up. I press the Nurse call thingy a couple times before the same nurse as before walks in with an annoyed look on her face. I hadn't meant to annoy her or whatever I did I just wanted her to come quickly. "Can I help you mister bostwick?" She asks an evil grin laid upon her face.  "uhmm sorry if I bothered you or whatever but I just wanted to know if I can see Victor?" I asked trying to be polite but that smirk on her face was making me a little bit nervous. "Well of of course! I'll go get him for you!" she said over enthusiastically and walked out of the room leaving me to wonder what's to happen next. 

           Victor walks in a few minutes later, a guilty look on his face. "Babe!" I say happily as he hugs me. He pecks my lips and gives me a small half smile. "I thought I lost you." He whispers looking into my eyes. "No baby i'm still here." I say and kiss him softly. Tears start falling from his eyes .  I was quick to wipe them from his cheeks. "I love you vic I'll never try to leave you again." I said looking back into his eyes. "I love you too Kellin..but I Just can't trust that you won't do it again." He said looking at the ground. "wait what?" I  asked confused at what he was trying to say. Was he breaking up with me? He just shook his head, tears falling on to the hospital room floor. "what's that supposed to mean?" I ask my voice cracking. "I-i you- you're." He stuttered out shaking his head. His hands were shaking. "Baby calm down you're scaring me." I said grabbing his hand and intertwining our fingers. After a minute of holding hands he was calm again. "You're going to Sharp Mesa Vista Hospital for four months." Vic said emotionless. "What?! Vic that's for crazy people!" I said raising my voice. His head snapped up to look at me. "you need help Kellin." He said. " No I don't! I'm not crazy!" I screamed hot tears streaming down my face. " I'm not going and you can't make me!" I yelled scooting away from him. I can't believe him. "You dont have a fucking choice! My mom became your guardian and I made her sign the papers you dont have a choice!" He yelled at me. "You hate me." I whispered with wide eyes. "No kells I could never hate you." He said scooting closer to me. He grabbed my face and kissed me passionately. Only I didn't kiss back because I was still upset that he basically just threw me away. He pulled away and frowned. "I'm gonna miss you...I promise to write and visit as much as I can." He said standing up as two people with shirts that said Mesa vista on them picked me up and put handcuffs on me. My eyes locked on Vics. He shot me a sympathetic look before walking out the door. " Wait Vic dont leave me." I whispered tears streaming down my cheeks. It was already too late he was gone.

                     I was was loaded into a van that said Sharp Mesa Vista Hospital on it in straight gold font. This is gonna be a long four months. 

             I'm guided into a registration room where I get thumb printed and patted down. I get a rundown of how everything works. I'm given a room number and i'm sent on my way. Because It's after  ten Pm I have to stay there for the rest of the night. I find room 34b and enter. 

   There's a boy on the bed closest to the window staring out the window. "Hi I'm your new roommate Kellin." I said putting my things down by what I guess is supposed to be my bed. The boy turned around to face me. "I'm Gerard." He stated. The next thirty minutes were spent him humming and me putting clothes in my drawer. "So why are u here?" I asked Gerard barely above a whisper. "It's a real fun story actually." He said turning to face me. I nodded for him to tell the story. 

       "Well my boyfriend Frank cheated on me and left me for the one he cheated with. I got depressed and I gave up. I tried to kill myself." He concluded.  I looked at him and found myself frowning. "That story wasn't fun." I pouted looking up at him. He smiled as a tear fell from his eye on to his cheek and said. "Yeah It wasn't that much fun staring down a loaded gun."