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Famous last

kellins POV (smut warning)

     The room was dark, I had just said goodnight to vic and all the patients found themselves confined to their rooms. You could cut the tension in my room with a knife. Hell you might even need a chainsaw. Gerard laid on his side facing away from me. I laid there and watching him. He sniffed.

     "Gee are you crying?" His shaking body answered my questions.

 I got out of my bed and made my way to his. Kneeling down next to him I was faced with the back of his head. "Oh Gee.." I whispered. I rubbed his back. Trying to sooth the crying boy. Soon the shaking slowed down and the sniffles subsided. He turned around to look at me. We were face to face. I found myself getting closer and closer until I could feel his breath fan out against my face. I could see the bags under his red tired eyes. I could see all of his emotions on his flushed cheeks.

      His hands found their way to the back of my head bringing me closer to him. I heard his breath hitch and before I knew it our lips were pressed against each others. Tears streamed from his eyes as we kissed this was a deep passionate kiss. Feelings flowed from him to me. He pulled away and began to sob. "Gee I-" He cut me off as he began to talk. 

    "I know that I cant make you stay, but where's your heart?" He cried poking me in the chest right where my heart is. I looked down at the spot he poked. My shirt had a dent in it from his finger. I felt my face heat up and tears welled in my eyes.

   I was so unsure of what to do. I was with Gee and I dropped him so quickly when Vic came back. So quickly in fact that he didn't even know about it himself until he walked in on me and Vic.

      He looked me in my eyes as he stood up. I stood up too. He began walking towards me and I began walking backwards. He kept eye contact the whole time. I found myself backed against a wall. Tears danced on both of our cheeks. Once again I could feel his breath on my face and his chest was pressed against mine. I could feel his heart beat against mine. I held his gaze before he pressed his lips into mine again.

      I took a moment to asses what was going on before I ended up kissing back. Our tongues fought for dominance. His won. I slid down the wall our mouths still connected at the lips. His hands shakily trailed down the sides of my body making me shiver. My lips left his for a moment  just so they could connect with his neck. I took my shirt off. Sucking lightly on his neck he gasped and threw his head back. His hands palmed me through my sweats and I could feel his bulge in front of me as I palmed him. We quickly grew Hard and we were both panting squirming messes. He Pulled me out of my sweat pants and began to pump at an agonizingly slow pace.

   "Pl-please Gee."

"What do you want me to do to you? Tell Gee what you want." 

"m-more." 

I gasped loudly as he took me all the way in his mouth. 

"I-Gee oh my god." I moaned his name and threw my head back in complete bliss. He swirled his tongue on my tip before deepthroating me once again. Bobbing his head up and down quickly. I let out girlish moans as he gagged around me. licking me from base to tip stopping at the tip just to suck on my sensitivity before going back down. He hummed causing one of the best sensations I ever felt  in my life. I threw my head back and Moaned his name.

 "I-I'm gonna c-um." I stutter out and he stopped completely grabbing my hand and sucking on my fingers. I watched him with wide eyes as he lubed up my fingers for him.

 I stuck my wet finger inside of him. He gasped and rocked himself back on my hand. I added another finger. I moved my fingers around and scissored my fingers stretching him out before adding my third finger. I moved my fingers in out of him earning beautiful noises from his pretty lips as I found the bundle of nerves I was looking for. 

"Kells I need you." He was a moaning mess.

"you need me to what?"

"I-i need you in me." --Music to my ears.

He spit on my dick before I lined myself up with his entrance before pushing myself in slowly. I gasped at the feeling. so warm wet and tight. 

"M-Move. please."  He lets out a shaky breath.

I began to thrust faster. Slamming against is G spot. My hand gripped his waist it was likely that there would be marks left there for him to discover later. 

"Fuck kells I- fuck!" The room was filled with our moans and the sound of our skin slapping together.

"G-gee you're so tight." 

I take him in to the hand that not secure around his waist and begin to pump him faster then I ever had before. I feel that familiar sensation of tightness and tingles. Pleasure begins to take over my body. Just at the sight of his body shaking under me as I pounded into him at full force. His half lidded eyes roll back as he moans out in pleasure.  

"I-I'm close."

"Me too." 

"Fuck kells I'm cu-"

He shoots in to my hand as I release inside him, filling him up. I watch His eyes roll back as he rides his high.

  I grab a towel and clean us both up. 

we're both in his bed. Staring at each other. Watching each other breathe.  

"You're in love with Vic, aren't you?" 

I only nod my head in response.  

"I know.. there's nothing I can say, to change that part." Gerard says. I see tears collect against his water line threating to spill over. And when they do I'm quick to brush them from his cheeks.

 "I'm sorry Gee." I said leaning in I kissed his lips and smiled sadly at him. He was broken and I knew it. I wished I could fix him.  

 "I just want to be with you." He cried burying his head in my chest. I held his shaking body close to me.  

"Is it hard understanding? I'm incomplete." He mumbled into my chest.

"W-what about Vic? I-I cant leave him again." I said suppressing Sobs. 

"Cant you just have us both?"  Gerard's question bounced off the walls in my skull. As I remembered what happened last time I dated two people at once. 

"I-c I-cant m-ike." I began to cry.     

"I'm nothing like him. I would never. Y-you know that." He said looking into my eyes. 

"we'd never work with Vic back. He'd see. Hes going to want to spend every second with me." 

"We'll work out.  He can have you during the day. Then at night you're mine. He cant see because we're locked in. It'll be fine Kells." He mumbled against my lips. 

 I laid there pressed up against him. Thinking about what he'd just said. I guess this could work. 

"Okay." 

"Okay?" 

"Yes." 

"Yes?"

"I'll be your boyfriend." 

 He smiles up at me and plants a sweet kiss on my lips. I lay there falling asleep to the sound of Gerard singing and humming softly. 

"I see you lying next to me. With words I thought I'd never speak. Awake and unafraid. Asleep or Dead? I see you lying next to me. With words I thought I'd never speak. Awake and unafraid. Asleep or Dead?"