What's It Gonna Take

☆prologue☆

Sha pov
I laid in bed looking at the ceiling thinkin how did I get in this situation again ? How could I be so stupid to let him back in my life after all the shit he put me through it has to be the sex right? Tuh who am I fooling I still love his selfish ass, suddenly I felt the bed shift & his arm go around my waist as he barried his face in the crook of my neck ."why you still up? " i heard him mumble "can't sleep got to much on my mind. " I tell him he was silent for a moment then asked like what ? "Us. This... what are we doin smoove one minute we hate each other the next your in my bed all cuddled up wit me . I'm confused I don't know what you want hell, I feel like I don't even know you anymore I'm sick of this roller coaster ride wit you. It have way too many loops for me this is my last time riding then I'm off." I paused for a second "for good this time tho I can't keep taking you back its been the same shit for the past 5 & half years I feel like you think I won't leave your ass for good ."I looked at him and he had his eyes closed like he was sleep I sucked my teeth gettin ready to get up but he tightened his grip around me look I hear you & idk how many times imma tell you I love you forreal I know I put you through alot of shit but I'm trying I haven't been fuckin up lately that gotta count for something everything gon be iight you gotta give it time just don't give up on me ma , please he asked then kissed the side of my lips I sighed I guess Cornell I guess I said before I turned on my side then soon fell into a deep slumber.
I just hope I'm not making a mistake by taking him back AGAIN...
But let me take you back to the beginning before things got so messy and outta hand before he turned into this monster idk where we went left but I just don't think I can't wait for things to get back right because I no longer know who he is or maybe this is the real him & the person I knew was a front all along . sometimes I wish I never gave him my number sitting on the porch but at the same time this is my everything love truly is blind. But here's our story...