The rogue king and the alpha (malexmale)

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I am glad I have him under control, but this really won't last for long.

I sighed as I sat with a few of my pack members. It was the first time in quite a while I could carry on with my alpha duties, but I was still worried about Ziathe trying something even in the condition he is in now.

I also am slightly ashamed of what I've done up until now. I couldn't stop myself, my wolf was so angry, I had to injure him....how was i supposed to know his wolf was going to do that?! Damn rogues....why do they have to make their inner wolf's hate them so much...

I was planning to let him die....I wanted to let him bleed out and realise that he did want my help, but he just ended up wanting to die. I couldn't let him die if he wanted to die, that would be too easy on him.

Also, I couldn't do it, I mean he seemed so calm, and he apologised.....I wish he could be like that again....i wish he could be passive and calm, maybe a little nicer. Just once..I want to see it again...

I want to kiss him again...

Damnit!

"You alright Alpha?" my gamma, Kelsie, asked, looking at me with a raised brow.

"Sorry, yeah I'm fine...just a little stressed" I replied and she gave me a sympathetic look.

"About your mate?" she asked and I looked to see if anyone else was listening with wide eyes. They were busy talking about something else and I looked back to her with a glare.

"How do you know about my mate?" I snapped quietly and she looked down.

"It's pretty obvious, I have been your gamma for 5 years, I know how you work, and you would've killed that rogue king if he wasn't your mate" she explained and I sighed.

"Do you think anyone else has worked it out?" I asked while running a hand through my hair stressfully.

"It's best if you tell them anyway" she said while not meeting my eyes and I huffed in exasperation.

"How many?!" I snapped and she scratched the back of her neck.

"We all know Aspen, we aren't stupid" my beta said and I glared at him.

"Or you told them?" I accused and he gave me a look.

"Don't lash out, you know I'd never do that, they all worked it out anyway, the whole pack knows by now" Ashley explained like this was obvious and I frowned.

"Why haven't I had anyone complaining then?" I asked and my delta scoffed.

"Because we don't give a shit, sure it sucks, but as long as they're not killing anyone and are suffering, it doesn't matter. Even if the suffering is just living like a pack wolf, the horror" they said and huffed with attitude, making me roll my eyes with a smile.

"Well...that's a big weight off my chest...but I'm guessing the trial is still happening?" I asked and Ashley gave me a sympathetic look.

"Yeah, but we we'll be on your side Alpha, like always. But that does mean you have to get him under control" he said, then frowned and I sighed.

"Easier said than done" I sighed and Sam, my delta, made a punching motion. "Want me to talk to them?" they said and I smirked.

"They aren't in the condition to fight right now Sam"

"Shouldn't you go see if he's alright?" Kelsie suddenly asked and I frowned.

"I need to do my Alpha duties" I said and everyone snickered.

"We've been doing them just fine up till now, don't worry about it, there hasn't been anything dramatic going on so all we've been doing is working out frickin' taxes and shit, it sucks." Sam grumbled and I rolled my eyes with a smile.

"Go!" Ashley pushed me out of my chair and I gave him a look before giving up and walking back to my chambers.

- 

I lightly pushed the hair out of Ziathe's face as he slept, letting out a sigh and guiltily observing the sweat on his chest and neck as he dealt with the pain. 

I shouldn't have let my wolf control me..I shouldn't have injured him...But how else was I supposed to get him back? He's too stubborn for his own good...

How long is his leg going to take to heal...he won't be running around for a long while...

Well...I guess that's kind of a good thing, for everyone but him at least.

I quickly stepped away when he stirred, but he didn't open his eyes, just winced in pain and fell still again. 

I'm such an idiot, can't believe I was going to let him die. It wouldn't just affect me, but everyone around me..and that's allot of people...allot of people rely on me.

I need to work this out, find a way to control him so I don't put the pack at risk.

I mean.....get along with, not control...

I decided to go for a walk, taking off my shirt then shifting, not bothering to save my trousers. 

I walked out the door then managed to unlatch the window with my teeth, jumping out then off the roof onto the forest floor. 

I looked at the orange leaves on the trees and the ground. Autumn was coming in fast, and next thing you know it'll be a bitter winter. Crops dying and famine spreading throughout the land. 

I thought about the rogues as I walked. Surely winter was worse for them.

They had no buildings to shelter in, and relied solely on their thick wolf coats to keep them alive...that's probably why most rogues are really strong...the weak don't survive...

Despite them being bad people, I really hoped I hadn't caused mayhem when I took away their leader...

I haven't heard of any packs being attacked..so they must have retreated...which is a good thing. 

Hopefully it will stay like that for a while, and no innocent people may die.

I also hope they didn't rely on Ziathe to get them through the winter...it does take a strong mind to make the right decision....especially when everyone is hungry and cold...and dying. 

I sighed as I plodded along. I hope I made the right decision...I mean what was i supposed to do? Sacrifice myself and kill him.....let him remain free and rampaging? No. This must have been the only way.

The pain became heavier the further I walked, and I eventually turned and sprinted back, jumping through the window and skidding into the room. 

Everything was fine, the way I left it, and I sighed again before walking over to the bed and lying by it. Seeing as I couldn't get on it without waking Ziathe, I lay next to where he was on the floor, closing my eyes and relaxing in the feeling of being close to my mate. 

yeah i can't be f#cked to post this later, just comment on all chapters guys it makes me feel so much better! ^^