Shattered - H.S. |on hold|

Eight.

It's been 4 days now, since I decided I would be better off without him. If I could live perfectly fine before him, than why not now anymore. To my surprise, it was working out pretty well. I tried to avoid Harry as much as possible and he had noticed. He didn't bring Lux to childcare and of what I could tell from the balcony, he was always gone since his curtains were most likely closed.

I tried to put my thoughts aside by reading, I had been reading most of the books Cleo kept and I never though she would have kept that much. Never knowing she read that much, apparently she knew me better than I knew her.

Today at childcare had been quiet this day. Pam had told me I needn't to come yet I prefered being here than at Cleo's flat, having a chance of running into Harry. Of course, he could show up any minute but at least she could beg Pam or Alice to take over my shift and take care of Lux.

Speaking of which I snapped my gaze up when I heard her giggle I had grown familiar with. I had prepared for the worst, expecting him standing there with Lux straddling his lower arm. Frown permanently between two brows and perfect lips that felt so soft against mine pursed into a thin line. I let my tongue wander over my lip as if the kiss was only mere minutes ago.

I was unaware of my closed until I heard Lux giggle again, snapping my gaze up to giggle, but to my surprise, she wasn't straddling Harry's arm at all. She stood right beside a gorgeous lady. Long hazelcolored straight hair pinned back. A sweet motherliked smile painted on her lips and crinkled eyes as she did so.

Lux' eyes fell on me, immediately dropping the hold she was holding onto and running towars me with her small steps. I placed my book aside and spread my arms for the little girl. It's strange how close the girl had been to me. I've been spending time with some toddlers here for a year and some still didn't recognise me. Yet this special little girl did. I picked her up and walked towards the lady that must be family of the girl and her dark souled brother.

“You must be Belle.” She smiled as we neared us. She stretched her arm towards me, the smile never leaving her face. I shook her hand politely nodding. “Yes I am.” I looked confused to the little girl and back to the woman I was facing. “And you must be..”

“Marie. I'm Lux' gardian.”

My eyebrows raised and my mouth fell open but once realization hit my I closed it again. I shook my head, feeling confused. “I thought Harry had to take care of Lux?”

Her smile faded which got me quite uncomfortable. “He didn't tell you?”

I got more confused every second, how did she know me in first place and how is she expecting Harry tells me everything. The exact opposite, I know nothing about the guy.

“Harry and I don't tell each other quite much to be honest.” I laughed awkwardly.

“Oh do you want me to tell it or do you want to hear it from him or do I just need to leave?” Her smile was back upon her lips.

“Oh you can stay if you want, I don't have anything to do. I would really like to know how you know about me and how the guardian thing is. But don't tell me anything about him. I don't need to know anything about him.”

She opened her mouth to speak but closed it again, swallowing the words that had been formed. She sat down, her legs criss crossed and I mirrored her action, placing Lux beside us.

“You probably know Harry doesn't have the great reputation.” She started telling. “It was a week before his birthday that his parents passed away. He wasn't 18 yet so Lux and himself went to their Guardians. Which were my husband George and I, we were his parents' chilhood, and now still, best friends. Harry grew up with us so he didn't mind. He stayed with us for about a year since the cops kept following him but I don't think it's up to me to tell you why. At his 19th birthday he decided he wanted to move on, there was an entire process with Lux, just because no one trusted him with taking full charge about her. So we had an agreement that Lux would come to George and I one week after Harry has kept her two. There are officers here, in London, that need to keep an eye on him. If he can handle Lux for the next half year, he'll be in charge of her for the rest of his life. If he can't, she'll be taken away from him. He's at his second month now and he's doing pretty well. Lux comes to us quite often at night though, since he has two jobs.”

I gulped, it was a lot to take in. Either way if I didn't know Harry, I knew I would have been flown into his misery in some way. If he wasn't Cleo's neighbour I would have met him here, or maybe at Scott's club. Maybe my dad would have talked about it, because he was obviously the one who had to keep an eye on him.

It's in the crazy way, but for the very first time, I started thinking maybe it was destined to meet Harry now. I quickly shook the thought off and smiled at Marie. She was so nice, so sweet and open. How could someone like her accept Harry for the past nineteen years.

“Has Harry always been rude and selfish?” I blurted it out before I knew it, quickly bringing my hand up to my mouth as if I pulled my words back in, trying to keep them there.

She shook her head, yet the smile never left her lips but slowly she was standing up.

“Harry has a hard time showing his feelings. He hates getting drawn to someone, but once he does. He crashes. Harry will always have his walls up and he might be the most horrible kid you've ever seen, but give him some time and one day you'll understand.” Before I could say anything she left, saying something to Pam who just nodded and shot her sweetly a smile back.

I turned to Lux. She looked nothing like her brother. She had bright blue eyes while he had green orbs who always seemed to shine out a different shade. Lux had white Fluffy hairs, Harry had brown, probably thick, curls. I prushed some of her light hairs out of her face which was returned with a giggle and some words I didn't understand.

“You've got in a quite weird situation, don't you?” She didn't hear half of my sentence, running off and grabbing her favorite doll. I smiled how carefree she was. Not knowing in which situation she actually was. The poor kid, she deserved a family, not a brother. She deserved a mother that would cook for her, help her out of teenage struggles. She needed a dad, to be his little girl. A dad to protect her from the danger in this world. I was unsure if Harry could do it, six months taking care of Lux and himself. On one side I hoped he couldn't. She would get put into the family she deserved, and Harry had to worry about himself.

Yet on the otherside, the person separating both would be heartless. It was strange, but in the past weeks I had noticed, how this little girl was the only one that kept Harry going. She was his rock. She needed him, as much as he needed her because it was clear, she was the only thing he had left.

As more as I thought about it, how worse I felt. I had judged the boy. The boy who had no one left except his little sister. Everyone kept on judging him, without knowing him. Whatever way it went, somehow I had always ended up getting in contact with Harry, so maybe it was my job to look behind the label and look at him as another stranger on the street.

Maybe it was my job, to give the boy a chance.

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This was the worst thing ever written omg. 

okay, HI BUTTERCUPS. I really really really don't like this chapter but I NEEDED one that gives information away & gives the decision away, yet she changed her mind during the part so yeah I really don't like it and it's uber short I just had a lot of difficulties writing this :( BUT I PROMISE IT GETS BETTER. Like it won't get better next part BUT IT WILL THE PART AFTER IT. Sorry if it's short and horrible. The next part will come soon probably & also be short and horrible tooo :( BUT ANYWAY THANKS FOR READING AND I LOVE EVERY SINGLE CUPCAKE! 

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