I honestly just cannot do it today. I'm just so sick of everything. Because I'm always made out to be the bad guy. Am I really that bad? That bad that people can't even look me in the eyes? What do I have to do to make them see I'm not the same person? I'm trying so hard. So God damn hard and all they want to do is tear me down over and over. I'm sick of this shit. I'm trying to get better. I was better. Until they came along and reminded me of why I was sick in the first place. Is it bad that I want to go back to that place? Yeah, it was horrible. But it was comfortable. If that even makes sense. I need a hug. Or six shots of vodka. Either would work. Maybe I need both. I don't know. I'm just tired of being the bad guy. Tell me, is that so wrong?
