EDITING!! My Everything: Niall Horan Ariana Grande

Chapter 46

So some of you are unhappy with the whole jaide maybe is pregnant with Nialls baby thing, and are saying you will leave. I just wanna say I know what I'm doing with this book. If you don't like it I'm sorry honestly.

I appreciate your honesty but it's kinda hurtful threatening to leave when you havent even gave it shot to see what really happens. If you leave that's fine, if you stay that's great I'm okay with either one. But this is an update so enjoy sorry I had to rant.

And that video in the side bar is little mix's song 'Secret Love Song pt2' fanmade music video and I loved it. So creds to the owner and the song kinda goes with the chapter in a way but I'm done rambling okay READ!!

Jaides P.O.V.

"Niall you're supposed to use protection every time!"

"I know but it's not like you can have kids anyway so why are you so upset"

"I fucking know that I can't have kids"

"So calm the fuck down!"

"Its not that simple"

"Wait, do you want kids?" Niall asks as he puts on his shirt. I glanced away looking at the mirror. This is like flashbacks all over again. I just ignored his question

"You want kids?" He ask again frowning.

"Yes I do in the future, But it's whatever right? everyone keeps throwing it in my face that I can't"

"Well sorry buts its the truth"

He picks up his jacket and started to head out but I ran after him stopping him at the door.

"Why do you hate me so much?"

"Come on move I don't have time f-" he says pushing me over but I cut him off.

"No answer me! Is it because I'm annoying or something?"

"Kinda, now mov-"
He tries to move me again but I stand my ground.

"The reason you hate me is because I love you, isn't it?" It barely came out as a mumble but he just stood unphased by my words.

"Wow you're pathetic" I laughed moving out of his way. The tears were burning my eyes but I held them in.

"Watch your mouth"

"No fuck you, you aren't shit Niall, you're a pathetic fuck boy who can't except the fact that he messed up and that someone actually loves him for once!" I screamed pushing him back. He walked back so I could miss him.

"Thats not true, and calm the fuck down" he spat

"Well guess what Niall. I hate you now, I hate you so much! now get the fuck out of my dorm before I call campus security!" I swung open the door and pushed him out.

"Fuck you jaide!"

"Go to hell!" And with that I slammed the door shut.

I'm feeling so many emotions right now. I changed for someone who hates me. I've become some sex slave or slut and thats not who I am. I've lost friends and that's all I needed.

I'm a fuck up, I'm a failure and everyone hates me. I might as well just leave them alone for ever and never return.

I'm already a "slut" might as well make a living out of it. I can live off campus become a prosititute and fuck up my life even more. No one would care.

But I'm Not gonna do that

Maybe it wasn't love that I felt for Niall. Maybe it was lust. Its gone now though.