EDITING!! My Everything: Niall Horan Ariana Grande

Chapter 59

Ariana's P.O.V.

I could feel the tingle on my lips still from that highly intense kiss. Im not sure what it was but that kiss wasnt just normal.

I sat still on the couch, contemplating about my life at the moment. He hasn't returned from the bathroom yet but, I just waited and waited. I'm not rushing him because I don't know if I can look at him in the eyes after it.

I could feel my heartbeat increase just from the sound of his room door opening and him coming back to the lounge. He came around the corner scratching the back of his head and sitting on the opposite couch of me.

We sat in silence, I don't know what to say. Should I play it off like Its okay? Should I confront him? Be angry? I don't know.

Im actually kinda waiting for him to start the conversation.

To my surprise he did.

"Yell at me" Niall blankly said.

What? Confused I look at with furrowed brows.

"What?"

He repeats "yell at me"

"Niall I'm not going to yell at you" I let out a chuckle.

"Well then tell me you don't wanna speak to me" he says frantically.

"Niall I'm not doing that, why do you want me to?"

"Because I'm stupid, I kissed you after I wasn't supposed to, do I regret it? No but I don't want you to be upset with me" I walk to sit next to him as he leans on his elbows. "I sound like a little kid" he adds on.

"Im not mad at you, if I'm being honest with myself I liked it too. But we can't continue it" I state.

"I just want to know why? Why can't we"

"Because Niall, I'm not gonna be a friend with benefits and you know what happened last time." I say a bit confused to why he's asking why. I had already told him why.

"I know that but, I can't just be your friend ariana."

"Well that's all you have to be, it's not my fault you know"

"You just had to" he mumbled.

"Had to what?" I ask angrily now.

"Fall in love with me. To walk in my life and make me go literally crazy about you. To make me want to be around you and keep you by my side 24/7. To make me want to say something I never say. Its not just an infatuation with you, it's not lust or anything. Its something about you."

I'm speechless, shocked, confused and I don't know. I don't even look at his face as he continued to speak.

"There's something about you that I like, you're different and I know that's what every guy says but I mean it. I only want to be around you I only want to kiss you. I haven't even looked at a girl since you came"

"Jaide"

"Forget her already! She was nothing to me, nothing at all"

"So do you mean what you said, about everything" I say looking up at him. He was already staring at my eyes. He looked completely serious.

"Yes I mean it. Be patient with me and maybe whatever I feel will come out" he speaks lowly looking at me still and grabbing my hand.

As an instinct I pulled my hand away slowly. His eyes narrowed before he grabbed it again.

"Don't push me away"

"Don't push you away? Push you away? Niall you're the one who pushed me away."

"I know and I'm sorry"

"Sorry doesn't always fix everything" I say taking my hand away again.

"Can we just stop arguing!?" He says ruffling his hair.

"Seems like we cant and it's tiring because-" My lips are sealed once again when he pressed his against my own. He pressed harder against me to make sure I didn't try to break it. I tried mentally fighting myself to stop but I ended up kissing back like always. Niall is like a drug, I just can't get rid of him. He moans into the kiss as he leans me on my back again the plush couch. Our tongues and lips battle against each other creating a motion. He crouches over my body as I'm under him. He pulls my shirt off in one swift motion before kissing me again.

Our hands are every where on each other and moans were released. I felt butterflies in my stomach, as Niall trailed his lips and tongue up and down reaching my lower region.

"Niall we can't do it here" I mumbled kissing him.

"We are doing it?" He said dumbfounded

"Do you not want to?" I say leaning on my elbows.

"No, I do I just, never mind" he lifts me up as my body was carried to his room. I could feel his lower region against mine as I slowly moved against him.
We almost tumbled as he grabbed the wall with one hand.

"Don't do that" he groaned and continued to his bed quickly. He tossed me on before crawling over me.

Our lips collided as I grabbed his bottoms pulling them off as he completely stripped me. We both sat naked just kissing.

"You're beautiful" he whispers in my ear literally making me melt, imagine my position.

I watch as Niall grabs a shiny packet and ripping it open and sliding the clear band on himself.
In one whole motion he interlocks out hands and pushes himself in me.

"Fuck!" I curse out loud, the pain is still there and it hurts like shit. My eyes screw shut as he went in and out slowly. My legs wrapped around him, I slowly got pleasure aside from pain.

"Does it hurt, I'll stop" he studders but I shake my head no.

"Keep going"

Soon enough his pace picks up and I'm in full moaning mode along with him. I don't know what it is but being this close to him makes me feel special. He's handling my body with so much care.

"Fuck Ariana" he groans continuing to push faster and faster. I could barely hold it anymore as my stomach pit burned with passion and I let go. He let go a split second after.

My breath grew heavy as I watched him pull out. Once he put the condom in the garbage behind him, he pulls the thin sheet over our bodies.

Just when I thought he was gonna leave he nuzzles him head into my shouldler.

"Cant believe we just did that" I say as he chuckles.

"I know but I'm glad we did"

"Make up sex?" I ask looking up at him.

"Yeah but it meant a lot" he says kissing my neck.

"I love you Niall" I mumbled into my arm. I don't know if he heard me but he just held me closer.

"I like you ariana" he says kissing my head making me smile.
Maybe it wasn't an 'I love you' but It meant a lot to me.

Awkward for me to write that sex scene but the rest was easy. School is officially over for me and that means I just have testing and I'm done with. I'll be updating a lot more.
I love y'all.

Narianafan