EDITING!! My Everything: Niall Horan Ariana Grande

Chapter 80

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Ariana's P.O.V.

"Niall will you stop making this hard. One minute you love me and the next you wanna leave" I said walking up to him. He looked defeated but fed up at the same time. 

"Ive always loved you! I don't know if i can say the same about you"

"Don't you dare throw that in  my face because Im not the one who broke us up! What dont you get i can't just be your friend. I never wanted to just be friends i've always wanted more. You pushed the whole friend thing on me"

"You'll just hold that over me forever. I tried okay, i did but now it seems like you are just blaming everything on me" He says throwing his hands up in defeat and a angry manner.

"Because it is your fault!" I yelled dropping the stupid log that was weighing  me down. I watched as it landed with a thud before i looked back at niall anger still clear in my eyes.

"Are you serious?! So you intentionally make me angry when you were messing around with ashton in the beginning"

I thought back to the moment when i first came to school and met ashton and i mean i knew he had a crush but i didn't think much of it. I didn't even think niall liked me personally until that night when they fought for the dumbest, randomness reason. 

"Niall i was oblivious to it! I didn't even think you liked me since you were rude to me" I said. 

"What about noah? You knew i was jealous we argued over that. Then it was jace, you intentionally went on a date with him knowing how much that hurt me and knowing how jealous i am, but no you did not care. So don't blame me for shit, yes i broke us up but you hurt me" Its like the love we had is clouded by a ball of hate and anger. No matter how much we argued and explained our points we don't connect and this argument is going nowhere.

"I didnt get a girl pregnant and leave her. So who's the bad guy?" I know that was a low blow but when you're mad you say anything.

"I left her for you! You wanna call me the bad guy. I didnt ask for this,Honestly i didnt even ask for you!" He said

"Fuck you"

"oh now im wrong, you just through jaide in my face."

"i really can't stand you"

"Quit acting like a.."

"Like a what?"

"Quit acting like a bitch" as soon as those words left his mouth his face fell and i knew he instantly felt sorry. At this point i was hurt. Beyond hurt.

"You know what niall. Now i finally know why you were so miserable and heartless in the beginning. Its because you're heartless and all you do is push people away. Maybe you should get your head out of your ass and grow up" I spat the words i never knew i would say to him. But its all for a reason. He didnt care so neither do i.

"I didnt mean it-"

"No niall you did" I mumbled not wanted to look at him. It was all rushing back, all the memories and feelings and the way i felt when he broke up with me. They just all came rushing back. We shared a look and i saw no emotion in his eyes. As if he could care less if i left him. I didn't understand it. I could feel the hot tear threatening to fall. I know i couldn't show how hurt i was, not in front of him.

"What the hell is going on here?" Perrie spoke up from the distance i didn't even know they were here. The rest of the group came running from the distance confused as well. I didn't even know i was crying until camryn said something. "You guys were gone for a while and were scared so we came to find you, ariana are you okay?" She said placing her hand on my back. I angrily wiped the tears that fell repeatedly and brushed past her. "It doesn't matter" stomping straight back. This was all a giant mistake, he obviously doesn't love me. The kisses, the hugs, the laughs, and all the things we did together. All gone and were all a waste of time because he was leaving me anyways. He didn't love me as much as i loved him. He didn't care about how i felt. He didn't care about our relationship, he never did. It was all a big mess and part of me just wants to erase him from my memory.