~Alpha Blind My Emotions (BoyxBoy) *Needs Major Work*

Chapter 23-Facing Them Ahead-

So, so incredibly sorry for the long update of this story. I guess saying that I was stuck with writer's block will be my initial excuse, besides graduation two moths ago.

Theme song for this chapter. "I Alone", by amazing "Escape The Fate".

Not edited! Sorry. 

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Chapter 23-Facing Them Ahead-

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How the hell can you tell your second older brother that you in fact died a couple of years ago, and that is ineeded the reason why you had to live with your eldest brother? Cona seriously?! I wanted to shout at the top of my lings but at the desperate look in her watering eyes made me rethink my actions; instead of blowing my lid I just pointed at the door telling her to give us a minute.

Bowing her head in apology she slipped off of the bed and quickly went out of the room. Joesph slammed the door shut and locked it before she could run in and shield me from him. But like everyone says you can't always hide from your problems, right?

This is me facing mine back at home.

I sucked in a deep breath of fresh air to sugar coat what had happened to me a couple of years ago. "Listen Joe", I said using the old nickname that I had given him when we were close. 

"No you fucking listen to me, Kemie!", he hissed and punched the door behind him. I winced and darted my eyes towards the white blanket laying on me while my fingers played with the fabric nervously. Why can't anyone see that my family is endanger because of me being vulnerable when they are near me? Hesitatingly I lifted my head up to see that his ashe-blonde hair looks disheveled instead of looking like he had got out of bed, his sky blue-chocolate brown eyes stared at me and they looked glossy and so...helpless. Why?

"Ke-Kemie", a sob came out of his throat. As he started to rub his eyes with the palms of his hands. I held my arms open for him. "Come here", I said in a hoarse whisper. Hating the fact that my actions brought tears to his eyes.

Before I could take in another breath of fresh air, he was hiding his face in my hair while his hands hugged me tightly as if I would vanish into thin air. "I am here", I soothed while hugging him back just as tight. 

My heart throbbed and ached in agony at what I had just done to him. Who else had felt this way because of me taking on my past?

Sandie?

Cona?

Taszer?

I don't want to do this anymore! 

I feel so toren up inside because I cannot give up and admit defeat! A flash from outside went off making me jerk my head upwards and at the source to see a female wearing a nurse's uniform. She held up four fingers, her bubble gum pink lip-glossed smile made me clench my hands into tight fists.

One of his workers...

'Four months', she mouthed before flipping her wine red hair off of her shoulder before walking away. Shakingly I burried my face into my brother's chest knowing that our going-to-be-fixed-sibling-relationship is going to be over before we could even act like how we used too.

"I am so sorry for being jealous that you had Merlin's attention this whole time..To know that-", he got choked up in another heart-wrenching sob. 

"You wouldn't have been able to predict what had happened long ago, okay. So never blame yourself".

"I will because you are my little brother!" I winced at the feel of his nails digging into my back, but chose to ignore it and let him hug me alittle bit longer. Since these days would be the last of our brotherly time.

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"So, you and Taszer, huh?", he asked me with pink tinted cheeks. I rolled my eyes at his new-found shy behavior and playfully punched him on his left shoulder, he fake gasped at what I had done and fell off of my bed. Then he began to roll around on the hospital floor moaning in pain while crying out. "When did you become so strong!"

Upon hearing someone clear thier throat.  I smiled at Taszer who has his left eyebrow raised in question, he leaned himself against the door and watched my brother act like how he used to when things were too awkward to be confronted with. 

"What the hell?!", Joseph shrieked when Taszer picked him up off of the floor. Jealousy flooded through me, which resulted in me gritting my teeth together in frustration.

How long has Joseph been able to wrestle around with Taszer for? Months? Years?

How close are they? Damn it! I groaned and burried my face into my hands to hopefully stop these unwanted thoughts from running through my head like a growing wild fire. 

"Oh, is little Kimmy feeling left out", Joseph whined in a taunting yet teasing way. I lifted my head up and flipped him off with my tongue sticking out.

"You wish, sucker!" I heat assualt my cheeks at Taszer's lack of speech. Why? Because my dear mate is in fact watching my tongue hungrily. Joseph smacked him behind the head and made a disguisted face.

"Dude! That is my baby brother that you are giving-", he shivered instead of finishing his sentence.

"How about we just cheer him up, the brotherly and friend kind of way! Don't hit me!", Taszer pleaded so my brother would put his pimp hand down. Hehe. Pimp hand.

"Fine. What do you say we...."

Taszer's breathtaking eyes sparkled in mischief. "I believe we should".

That is when I realized by leaving these two to cheer me up meant that I wouldn't be able to talk for a couple of days from laughing way too much.

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I believe that it could have been way better! But I hope it is liked at least. Thanks for reading! :D