I Always Want What I Cant Have: A Cody Simpson Love Story

Make Amends

Nothing changed over the following days. Just more feeling sorry for myself, more wondering if I had made the worst mistake of my life.

And the more I thought about it, the more sure I was that I was losing everything to me. I never realized it before, but I had it so good. Cody was perfect. In every way possible. Who am I kidding, he was a total babe. He had it all- the looks, the voice, but I never got past the personality. That's what always got me. How would I ever find a guy like that again? Simple. I wouldn't.

On the fifth day since I saw Cody at the Baskin Robbins, I was at a little seaside shop. I saw a couple about my age strolling adoringly through the shop. The cute girl's face lit up as she pointed out a shell- in the shape of a heart, much like the one I found Cody, attatched to a thin gold chain.

I watched around the corner as her boyfriend carefully placed it around her neck and kissed her cheek, while walking her to purchase it at the check out.

I wanted to run up to that girl and tell her how lucky she was. How she should cherish what she had before it was gone. But, of course, I might get security called on me.

So instead I drove to Cody's house. Nothing was going to get better by sitting her and moping and wondering what could be- when I could make what I want happen.

I knocked on his door hesitantly. My heart pounded so loud, I swore he would be able to hear it. And I thought about running- about chickening out and running to my car and hiding from the world. But I was too late.

"Kyra?" Cody said in a whisper. He was wearing the same flannel shirt I tried on when I had nothing to wear that first day we were together. My heart sank,

"I can't do this. You're right. We need to talk," I said, staring at my feet.

Cody said nothing, but opened the door and I slipped in. He softly closed it behind him. 

"So, how ya been?" he awkwardly asked. 

"Fine," I fibbed, "You?"

"Same," Cody casually replied.

We both started to talk at the same time but interrupted one another.

"You go first," I pleaded.

"Okay, listen. I know what happened was really bad. And I'm really, really sorry that ended up happening. I think we both overreacted a little." Cody said with a nod.

I nodded and hoped he had more to say. He just looked at me. I dared myself not to cry, but the more I thought the harder it became.

"I'm just so lost right now," I said, a tear rolling down my cheek.

Cody embraced me and we stood there hugging for quite some time. I was hoping he had answers- where do we go from here?

"Listen, Kyra. We were both wrong, and we both know it. So what now, angel?" My heart fluttered at the sound of the familiar nickname.

"I just can't say. We have so much fun together, but we're so fragile. Is it worth it?" I wondered aloud, looking in to Cody's eyes.

"Of course," Cody said with a smile. I almost thought he was tearing up, but I didn't want to embarass him so I looked away.

"So?" I questioned.

"So, let's make a deal. Let's try this thing again- only we tell each other everything. I'll tell you all of my worries and concerns, if you promise not to get mad. And I'll do the same for you . If anything is gonna work, we'll need to have total communication," Cody replied.

All I could do was collapse in to his arms and breate in his sweet cologne. I felt so at home. My heart felt like it had just fluttered out of a dark cave. 

And for a while, we stood, enjoying one another's company. I wanted to ask Cody about Alexcis, but I figured we'd better just watch TV or something.

And that we did. Until of course, a celebrity news TV show came on, featuring Cody and Alexcis.

"Cody? What's that about, really?" I hesitantly asked.

"Absolutely nothing. When we dated, there was nothing. We barely lasted. And by the way, I talked to Alexcis. She didn't send the picture in- well not technically. She had it made into a big framed picture for us- and the sleezy guy at the Photo shop sold it to the tabloids. She's suing, of course." Cody explained.

"Wow. I guess I was worng about her," I said, still uncertain if the story was completely true. But, whatever, everything was okay now.

I snuggled in to Cody's shoulder and he took my hand. I looked in to his eyes and kissed him softly on the lips. 

"I missed that, you know," Cody sweetly explained with a chuckle.

"Oh yeah?" I flirtatiously responded.

"Did you miss this?" Cody said, biting his lip before leaning in and kissing me passionately. 

"WE'RE HOOOOME!" A voice boldly boomed.

I jumped, and I think Cody did too.

Before I knew what was happening, the living room was a full house.

"What are you guys doing home so soon?!" Cody said, with a hint of frustration.

"WE MISSED YOU!" A boy who looked about the age of seven commented.

Cody seemed to forget I was there, and by the way, I was completely confused. I elbowed him lightly and he blinked back to Earth.

"Uh, guys, this is Kyra. I think i might've mentioned her?" Cody asked.

"Might've mentioned HER?" A girl a little younger than Cody said sarcastically. "You only told us how beautiful, and amazing, and smart, and funny, and beautiful, and hot, and beautiful...did I say beautiful? DUDE every time we called, it was KYRA KYRA! I'm Alli by the way," she giggled.

I felt myself getting red, and who appeared to be Cody's family introduced themselves to me.

After a few minutes of chatting, Cody's dad spoke up.

"Now Cody, I trust you enough to know nothing is going on here when we're not home?"

Cody rolled his eyes in annoyance. "C'mon Dad! Just, No!"

Cody's brother, Tom, and sister, Alli, giggled nervously.

The Simpsons invited me to stay for dinner, which I happily accepted, and actually grew fond over them that night.

They had a lot of fun in Australia but couldn't stand that their son was all alone, which is why they came back.

"So how long has, er, this been going on?" Angie, Cody's mom asked, pointing to me and Cody who were snuggling.

"Since my show at Hard Rock, actuallty. Not nearly long enough... I like to believe that it was a total miracle that I met you" Cody looked at me adoringly, "Just think- if you had got in your car ten seconds earlier, we might not even know each other...it's wild, isn't it?" Cody replied.

 Angie gave him a sweet smile and went off to do the dishes.

"You have a lovely family," I genuinely said.

"Ya...they're alright," Cody joked, with a peck on my cheek.