The Best friend

The letter

Tomas P.O.V

Delilah hadn't been to school in the past three days, since the thing at the rec center. No one was talking about to anymore, but I'm glad she wasn't there I didn't want to see her face and honestly, just thinking of her face was making me angry all over again.

Ty hadn't talked to me since Friday and I hadn't know why, he'd look at me and shake his head but nothing too bad, and Katie was prancing around back on her throne with no intrusions from anyone. Everyone was happy.

I sat in first period with a smile because for the past three rays I'd been the smartest in class again without Delilah pestering and blabbing on and on. Her friend Jess walked into class and she looked really sad like she'd lost her friend. Or dumped her friend, because I would've dumped Delilah too if I
found out what a hoe she was and technically I did.

Next came Ty but he walked straight over to Jess's desk and kneeled beside her.

"Have you heard anything?" He asked.

"No and I've been calling her cell and her house phone, I even called her mom but no answer. Ty I'm scared." She whispered to him.

"Don't be, she's going to be alright. She's a strong girl and we all know that what Katie did was a lie. She has us if she didn't have anyone else. She knows that." He said rubbing her back.

When the teacher came he made his way back to his desk and class began. But forty five minutes into the lecture Jess's phone vibrated, she fished it out of her pocket and gasped when she saw the caller.

She quickly raised her hand, "Mr. Turner, could I please step out for a second?" She asked.

"And what is the occasion Ms. Cartwright?" He asked.

"Menstrual." And with that he shoo'd he out of the door.

With majority of the class asleep he began talking about the Mayans again he would do this for ten minutes until there was a loud banging at the door. He stood and as soon as he opened the door Jess came charging at me.

"You motherfucker!" She yelled.

One guy stood up and grabbed her before she got to me and held her back. Ty quickly stood up and hurried to her side.

"Let her go." He urged the guy and after reassurance he let her go and Ty grabbed her.

"Jess what's wrong?" He asked.

"Have you checked your email since Friday?" She asked not taking her eyes off me.

"No, why?" He asked loosening his grip.

"Check it now." She said.

"And you read up too, bitch." She said sliding her phone on my desk.

It was an email from Delilah:

Hey guys, Jessie & Ty

Sad Lilah is back. I was actually doing really well, you know being happy. Or what I thought was happy. But I wasn't. I don't know what to think anymore. I don't know if I'm depressed or my heart is still broken or if its both. When I scrolled down my contacts list on here it was overwhelming to think that there was no one here who I could go to and tell them this, without wondering if this is real. That always my reaction when I get like this, sad and just miserable because what if none of this shit is as serious as I'm making it? What if that person, whoever I decide to tell this, thinks I'm only doing this for attention? I don't want to seem like I'm wasting anyone's time if I don't even know if or why I'm really sad. That's the depression part. The heartbreak part comes in when I realize that when I used to get like this I always had someone to fall back on and tell me that things would get better and not stress too much about and that if I didn't have anyone else I had him. And now I dont. All I have are these confusing ass bullshit feelings. I'm never going to be truly happy and that scares me so much. I've had so much practice at false happiness because I do it everyday especially at school where its like I appear to be happy just so no one asks me if I'm sad and when I go to explain it, they don't care. On the one hand I wanna ball up and cry but I can't. I can't allow myself to cry because I don't want to seem weak, to myself. But its just so much all this shit is weighing down on me and I don't know how to handle it. Its tiring. I wanna sleep. Is it bad that when people talk about death, my mind automatically goes onto the things that I wouldn't have to worry about if I were dead? Because I do all the time. I've wanted to die since ninth grade. Havent worked out all the details yet. But if I did I wouldn't have to worry about all the mediocre things. I guess. But yeah those are my thoughts. My feelings and they're not anymore of my feelings than they are my depression's, she has a mind of her own a mind that I thought I'd silenced the day Jess and I had met. Jess, something that I've never told you is that you unknowingly saved my life, and I'm grateful to you for that because if you hadn't bounced your way into the cafeteria that day, the first day we met, that night I would've do  exactly what I'm preparing to do now. Like I said before all of these years I thought that I'd silenced her, put her to rest. But our enrollment at Brentwood introduced my to Katie and reunited me with Tomas. Single handedly Katie awaken the beast with all of her stunts and the thing at the rec center just added kerosene to the fire, but what really set off the explosion was what Tomas has said to me when I told him that Katie was cheating on him. Come to find out she'd wormed her way into his ears as well. He hurt me and made her ( my depression ) feel wanted and loved. So when I came home to find my pills to get rid of her, she found some sleeping pills to get rid of me. I sorry it has to be like this but I can't take it any longer. I won't.

                                  XoXo Delilah

I looked up and saw that Ty was noe staring at me like he'd wanted to kill me.

" What'd you say to her!" He asked.

"Her mom just called me and told me that she found her overdosed in her room! She attempted to kill herself because of your skanky ass girlfriend and you!" Jess yelled.

"What did you say to her!" Ty yelled again.

I honestly was too shocked to answer, I couldn't form words they weren't coming out of my mouth and I was just sitting there shaking my head.

"Mr. Hanson and Ms. Cartwright, either take your seats PR go to the principle." Mr. Turner finally spoke up.

Jess turned to Mr. Turner and then started packing her backpack.

"I'm not going to do either, I'm sick of this stuck up ass school and these stuck up ass kids." She said heading for the door.

"Jess wait up!" Ty called after her grabbing his bag out of his chair.

"And where do you think you're going?!" Mr. Turner asked trying to stop them both.

Jess stopped and looked dead at me.

"To the hospital to make sure my friend is alive. And Delgado you'd better pray to whatever you believe in that she is." And she turned on her heels and walked out the door.