The Best friend

Feel It

I woke up and sat on the edge of my bed, staring at the door, the very unfamiliar door. Everything was different and its mind boggling how much everything changed withing the first month of my senior year, so i honestly don't even want to know how it ends. 

Today was Friday, meaning I had one more day until I would be able to ge some type of rest from school, everything has been so fucking crazy that it's been hard for me to focus on my school work, especially in history, because when I look back I expect to see Delilah there but I don't and that's my fault.

Pulling off my shirt, I stepped into the shower and let the water wash off the nightmares that I had the night before, visions of Delilah actually succeeding in killing herself and Mona having to find her daughter and then me, probably locked up because of what I said to her, that was the smoking gun.

While I was getting out of the shower I heard a knocking on the guest room door.

"Tomas?" My mom called.

I walked out of the bathroom to my mom sitting on the end, she looked at me and motioned for me to come and sit next to her, when I did she wrapped around mine and put her head on my shoulder.

"I love you, you know that right?" She asked.

"Yeah, all the time." I replied.

"I'm not mad at you how you think I am, I'm just very disappointed in the decisions you've made recently." She said.

Of course there was no way that we could live under the same roof as the Hardaways and my parents not find out about the events that had taken place before Delilah decided to attempt suicide, so I swallowed the lump that was in my throat and I told them myself. My mom was angry, cursing at me and hitting me with a slipper and my dad had an emotion that I couldn't really read and that was scarier than my mom's anger.

"You go and you apologize to her right now!" My mom was yelling.

"I already apologized!" I responded.

"Are you yelling at me?!" She asked swinging the slipper again.

"You  go apologize to her again and again and again! I did not raise you to be like this, what has happened to you!" She yelled crying.

" I know mom, I'm more disappointed in myself than you probably are, I don't know I just let Katie get so far into my head that I couldn't see the truth when it was right in front of me and most of the stuff Katie was saying, I knew it didn't make sense I just believed her, someone almost lost their life because of me." I explained.

" I think it goes without saying that I don't want you to talk to Katie, at all. She's no good for you, even just as a friend." My mom warned me.

"You're lucky that Mona is such a compassionate woman because we would have lost a place to stay, she didn't have to forgive you but for some reason, she did. If it were me, if someone drove you to try to take your own life, I wouldn't be able to see past my own anger, let alone let them in under the same roof as you." She explained.

"Yeah mom, I know Mona is a good person and shes a good mom and she had an amazing daughter who didn't deserve what I said to her, and I wouldn't be mad if she never talked to me again." I said.

"Well, all she needs is some time, that was a very traumatic thing she had to go through. But, I'm going to let you get ready for school. I love you, Tomas." She said. 

She kissed my forehead and stood up, walking out of my room .

I got dressed for school and grabbed my keys out of the hey bowl by the front door, everyone else was either gone or asleep and I knew for a fact that Delilah was probably asleep so, I left for school.