Unpredictable ~LH & MC~

sixteen

{Kathryn's POV}

I nervously lift up my shirt and I watch as his eyes go wide with shock. "Kathryn..."

"I know I know," I sigh sadly. "I was where you are. Just in a little bit different type of situation. My Dad left my mom when I was ten, and as much as I wanted to blame my mom, a small part of me felt like maybe I had something to do with it. Maybe I was a mistake, and he just didn't want me to be a part of his life anymore. At times I felt like I should've tried harder and maybe he would've stayed. I sorta...just fell apart for a while. One day I fell a little too far apart....and ended up in the hospital. It scared my mom to death. She took me out of school and decided to homeschool me. Thinking that I was doing all of that because of school. I'm not gonna lie school was a small part of it, but it wasn't the main reason. Homeschooling me just meant more alone time and more cutting on myself, but she didn't know that, and frankly, I did hate my school and I'm glad she pulled me out. She came home one day to find me passed out on the floor with tons of blood. That was the last straw she immediately got me a session with a local psychologist."

"Kathryn I..I didn't know I'm so sorry," Luke stutters and shakes his head before looking at me. "I'm suck a dick."

A smiles spreads across my face at his comment and I can't help but let a small laugh escape my lips, "Luke, you're not a dick. Don't be sorry. If anyone's sorry it's me. Finally I began to, little by little, realize that my Dad's actions were not results of me."

Luke shakes his head, "If only it were that simple. Kathryn...Ive tried to stop. But sometimes I just feel like nothing will ever get better."

His words make my heart hurt, and I
honestly just want to sit here and cry while we hold each other, but I know that's not what Luke needs right now. "Trust me Luke, I know what it's like to think things will never get better. That you're not important. But that's all a lie. Your mind is messing with your head just like it was messing with mine. Everything will get better, I promise. You are important! Heck, you play in a band that's bound to get famous by your amazing voice. And if you think no one cares I can assure you Emily cares, your band mates care, and I care."

He smiles ,"I really do hope you're right because i'm just going to be honest Kat, this fucking sucks."

I laugh, "Yea, trust me, I know."

He begins to stand up and looks down at me, "Hey, um, you don't do that anymore right?" He points awkwardly to my stomach.

"Nope I haven't in about two years," I smile proud at myself that i've lasted this long without even thinking of ever doing such a thing again.

He smiles back. "Good. I really hate talking about this. Want to do something?"

"Sure, but are you sober now?" I ask.

"More sober than I was a couple hours ago that's for sure," He laughs with me. "Want to watch a movie?"

"With you?" I ask.

"No with my mom," he smiles. "Of course with you!" He gets up off the steps and reaches out his hand for me. I take it and laugh as he pulls me off the floor. Unfortunately he's still slightly intoxicated so it causes him to stumble forwards, making me back into the wall. "Whoops sorry," he smiles and stares into my eyes. His beautiful blue eyes scan over my face. He bites down on his bottom lip and brushes a piece of hair out of my face. My heart races as he leans in closer to me. Right before his lips brush mine, I turn my head. I want to kiss him. So why can't I...

He clears his throat ,"I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me."

I shake my head and take his hand ,"No Luke, it's okay. Let's go watch a movie!" I begin to run up the stairs toward Luke's room pulling him behind me. When we reach his room I excitedly turn around. "Can I pick the movie!"

He sighs, "I guess so." I nudge his shoulder.

"Oh c'mon don't worry I'll pick a good movie, "I smirk.

"Sure you will, "he rolls his eyes and plops down on the bed.

I end up randomly selecting one without looking. Insidious great. Looks like Luke's about to see me scream.

"I stand corrected, "Luke says as he glances at what DVD I'm holding up. I mentally gulp as I place the DVD into the TV and watch as it begins to play. I awkwardly make my way over to Luke's bed and sit down on the edge creating a good amount of space between me and him.

Through my peripheral vision I can see him smirking,"I don't bite." I smile.

As the movie goes on tons of jump scenes happen making that good amount of space even smaller.

"This is the scariest part of the whole movie,"Luke says. "No matter how many times I watch it I'll never be prepared for it."

"Thanks Luke, I really appreciate it," I roll my eyes and he shrugs.

Sure enough he was right. A woman begins to scream causing me to jump and then the scariest thing I've ever seen pops up on the screen. I cling onto Luke and his laugh feels the room. I playfully hit his chest and Luke up, "That isn't funny!" He raises his hands in surrender but then smirks.

"It sorta is." I groan. He smiles, "Hey, it's cute." He wraps his arms around me. "Don't worry no one's going to hurt you, I'm here." I smiles up at him and he smiles back as he stares at me. He continues to do it and I know he wants to kiss me. I shake my head and laugh.

"What is it?" He frowns.

I stare at him, "You can kiss me y'know."

His frown disappears and he looks stunned, "I thought you didn't want me to?" He says as if it's a question.

I lean closer to his face, "Maybe I changed my mind." He smiles and crashes his lips into mine. Sparks fly through my body as his lips work against mine. I don't know what made me stop him last time, but I'm glad that he's kissing me now. He pulls away, "I've wanted to do that for so long."

I smile, "Then why stop now?" This time it's me that crashes my lips against his. I wrap my legs around him and lean down on top of him. He chuckles, "Getting comfortable?" I pull away from him, "You're killing the mood, shut up"

"Yes Ma'am." He starts to kiss me again and we stay like that  for what feels like hours as I slip into what feels like a make believe fantasy.