Unpredictable ~LH & MC~

twelve

{Kathryn's POV}

I open my eyes and see big red numbers reading 10:45 a.m. I guess its time to get up now. I sigh and slowly walk down the stairs. I feel like a zombie and I probably look like one too.

"Mom," I yell. There's no response. I walk into her bedroom but she's nowhere to be seen. I walk into the kitchen and sit down at the table immediately putting my head down. I feel myself falling back asleep so I quickly snap my head up and rub my eyes. I open my eyes and see a piece of paper taped to the fridge. How did I not see this a second ago? I detach it from the fridge.

They needed me at work today. I should be back by this afternoon sometime. Sorry for the late notice. I didn't want to wake you.
Love, Mom

Looks like I have the whole house to myself. I sit for about five minutes scrolling through twitter finally deciding that having the whole house all to yourself is really boring. I decide to text Emily and see what she is up to.

Me: Hey! My mom is at work...want to come over?

Emily: I would love to but Luke and I are getting lunch right now.

Me: oh okay...

Emily: You should join us! I can get Luke to pick you up.

Normally anywhere Luke's at I try to avoid. Normally I don't want to talk to him or run into him, but for some weird reason my thumbs type these words...

Me: Sure I'll come! What time do I need to be ready by?

Emily: 11:45

Me: Okay see you then.

I could just about slap myself. Ever since finding out about Luke's mental issues, I haven't stopped thinking about him. My whole viewpoint on him has changed. I didn't even know who he was and I called him a jerk, and trust me I feel pretty bad about it. I honestly don't know what to say to him. And stupid ole me just put me in a situation where I'm going to have to talk to him or else it's going to look incredibly rude. Am I on crack or something, because I honestly don't know what was going through my head when I sent that message?

I quickly throw on a clean t-shirt, leggings, and converse. I have no desire to look cute today. I'm tired and I just want to snuggle and watch Netflix. I put my contacts in, brush my teeth and hair, and then apply my make-up. I take once last glance in the mirror before grabbing my purse and sitting down on the bed waiting for the doorbell to ring. Seconds later as on cue it rings. I take a deep breath as I walk down the stairs and brace myself for what will happen once I open it.

"Hey Kathryn!" Emily opens her arms and wraps her arms around me. Luke gives me a soft smile and I return it sympathetically.

"Let's get going." Emily smiles at me and I nod.

I get in the backseat of Luke's car and close the door. I see a CD lying in the floor and quickly recognize it as my favorite album.

"You listen to All Time Low!" I say with shock.

Luke smiles, "Yeah I love them you?"

"They're only like my favorite band ever!"

"Really? I thought 5 Seconds of Summer was your favorite band?" He smirks.

I blush, "You guys are tied at the top of my list."

"Hello!" Emily yells from the front.

We both just look at her. "What?"

"I asked a question but neither of you would shut up and didn't seem to hear me." She folds her arms across her chest.

"Sorry sis don't be upset." Luke pouts.

"Shut up." She says sternly.

Luke pokes her cheek, "Now, now you can't be mad at me."

Emily giggles, "You're annoying. Pay attention to the road you're going to wreck us."

"Hey! I'm a great driver!"

"Mhmm sure."

Luke just shakes his head and focuses on the road. The next minute he's parking and we all get out of his car and head into the café.

"It doesn't look like much but they make the best food ever," Emily smiles. We walk into the cafe, and a young girl who looks like she's in college seats us. I take the seat across from Emily and Luke.

She takes our drink orders and then leaves saying that she'll give us time to read over the menu.

"I think I'm going to go the restroom. I'll be back in a sec." Emily excuses herself and walks toward wherever the bathroom must be.

Luke just fiddles with his thumbs. I want to talk to him I just don't know what to say. Last time we talked I found out that he hurts himself pretty regularly. I want to let him know that I'm there for him and care about him. I hesitate and slowly put my menu on the table.

"Luke.."

He cuts me off, "Nobody knows about me Kat, not even Emily. Please just act like nothing has happened and everything is fine. She can't know, not now, not ever, understand?" He says nervously. I can tell that it's not easy for him to talk about this.

"I'm not going to tell Emily anything, but Luke everything is not fine. What you do to yourself isn't okay and I want to help." I whisper remembering that there are other people around us.

"You can't help me! I'm messed up and you're just going to have to accept that. Besides I bet this is the first time that you've known someone who does this to themselves. You don't know what it's like, so no, you can't help."

He's right. I haven't ever known anyone who's done this to themselves. That doesn't mean I haven't heard self-harm though. In 6th grade my teacher's nephew committed suicide by jumping off of a building. I heard rumors about people at my school cutting themselves but I never knew them. Everyone hears tragic stories on the news channel. It's right in front of your face how could you miss it. But I've never done with it myself or known anyone who has done with it.

I sit there not knowing what to say. My mind is racing with thoughts.

"I might have never self-harmed before, but that doesn't mean that I don't know anything about it. Sometimes it just helps to have someone there for you. No one likes to be by their selves for long periods of time. I'll listen to what you have to say."

"You don't know me, Kat."

Even though we're talking about something serious whenever he calls me that I get chills. It sounds so perfect coming from his lips. I've never liked people calling me that, but when he does it, I love it.

"All you know is that I've hurt myself. You've seen the scares but you don't know the stories behind them." He looks down at the floor like he can't bear to look at me right now. Honestly all I want to do now is be alone with Luke so I can be there for him and listen to him. He needs to know that someone cares. Sure I've only known him for maybe a month, but I do care about him.

As soon as a think of a response and begin to open my mouth. Emily comes walking around the corner with a huge smile on her face. She's always happy, I wish Luke would one day be the same.

"What did I miss?" She says as she sits down next to Luke and takes a sip of her coke.

"Nothing much, I was just recommending some things on the menu to Kat." He smiles. There is so much pain within him yet he smiles. I know I could never do that. I might have just met Luke but he is by far the strongest person I've ever met, and no matter what he's fighting, I'm going to try to help him. One day this will all be in the past. He'll be happy and he won't even remember the days where he no longer wanted to live.

I just wish we could skip to that day...