Wanted and Loved [ COMPLETED ]

A break

***annie pov***

I sat on my floor crying. "Annie, why was Jake crying?" Emmi asked coming into my room, "why are you crying?" She asked in her small fragile voice. She closed the door and came and sat next to me. "We broke up." I said holding in the tears. "The first guy who didn't cheat or was an a hole. He really cared about me, and I ruined it all." I said holding in tears.
"Annie, I'm so so sorry."  "Me to."
Emmi got up and left.
I know I cheated on him so I shouldn't feel this bad, but I feel horrible. I hurt him and myself. I went to the bathroom and got my razor and cut. I cut my side I couldn't take it, I feel so bad.
"Annie! Dinner!" Dad yelled.
I cleaned up and then went downstairs. Mom made lasagna. "So how was everyone's day?" Mom asked.
"My day was good! Me and Rylie did our homework and then we had a a dance party!" Emmi said excited.
"We finished our 3rd to last scene then we can go home next month." Avia said in a bratty tone.
Then it went quite I held my head down softly crying. "Annie? How was your day?"
I just shrugged. "She didn't have a good day." Emmi said.
"May I be excused?" I cried.
"Sure. Put your plate by the sink."
I got up and looked at floor it had a puddle. I wiped my eyes and put my plate by the sink. I went into mom and dads room and grabbed my phone. It had at least 500 messages from Lindsay asking if was okay and alive. Then I had a couple from Jake.
"You really hurt me Annie, but I don't want to lose you. I just need a break. In a couple of days maybe we can talk."
I was standing in my room and I just started sobbing. "Annie? Baby?" Mom said knocking on the door. "Yes?" I asked sounding like I wasn't crying.
"Can I come in?"
"Sure"
Mom came in and closed the door. "Why are you crying?" I just shrugged, "is about Jake?" She said his name and I started sobbing. Mom walked me over to the bed. "Annie, what's going on my beautiful?" "M-m-mom, we broke up." I sobbed as she held me. "Why princess?" "I-I cheated and I felt bad so I told him. Then he broke up with me."
"Annie, princess I'm sorry."
Mom didn't know what to say because it was my fault that we broke up and he wants a brake. "Can I be alone?" I asked. Mom nodded and she kissed my forehead and left. I know it's silly but I want to die. The thought keeps coming up again and again. This aren't good on social media, comments, people.
I needed to talk to someone besides my family. Dad took my phone so I needed to get it. I opened mom and dads door to see them laying down. I could play this two ways ask and get it and get yelled at or sneak and get it. So plan B
I snuck in and went to moms night stand. I grabbed my phone and crawled out. I closed the door softly. I ran back to my room. I dialed the phone.
An/ Carlie?
Ca/ Annie?
An/ I need someone to talk to who isn't my parents or siblings.
Ca/ why? What's going on?
An/ I want to die. I want to kill myself more than ever. I can't take all this damn pressure of being something I'm not. Avia is being a brat and Emmi is sad. I can't even remember the last time I said I love you to Brock or Daxton. I miss Idaho. I can't take it here anymore. I'm going to go crazy
Ca/ Annie, baby girl. I have been in your position before. Just remember Dax and Brock will ALWAYS love you. No matter what Avia she is always a sassy brat but once a she comes back I'll smack some sense into her. Pleas talk to your parents it will help.
An/ thanks Carlie I got to go cause I'm sorta grounded and I took my phone. I love you thank you.
Ca/no problem kiddo promise you'll talk to them?
An/ promise.

I hung up the phone and snuck it into mom and dads. We have started to start packing and honestly can't wait to leave. I went into the living room and watched TV all night so I didn't have to go to school tomorrow so I could make myself look sick. I started to sweat and get really hot and my stomach and head started hurting. "Shit." I mumbled before I threw up on the tile floor. Then I threw up again. "Wtf, I must be over heated." I walked to mom and dads room I looked at the clock and it read '5:30 AM' mom and dad should be awake around now. I knocked on the door. "Come in." I heard dad say. I walked in "uh- I threw up on the floor twice." I said kinda humiliated. "Uh.. Well go lay down and we will wake you for school and see how you feel." Mom said as they got out of bed to go clean up my puke.
I went to my room and changed shirts but I was still sweating. Then I layed down and fell alseep.
*
"Your worthless piece of shit! Throw up in my carpet one more goddamn time!" My abusive mom yelled. My father touched my butt and my mom was yelling at my and threw up. My
Mom came over to me "that's it you ungrateful little snot!" Then she pulled my hair and threw me to the ground as my mom and dad kicked me.
I just layed there and cried. After they stopped kicking me they got bowls and picked up my puke and put it on me. I never felt lower.
*
"Annie, wake up." Mom said shaking me. "I'm sorry!" I yelled jolting up. "O-oh- s-s-s-s-sorry -sorr-sorry I -i-i- had a-a-a nightmare." I said stud seeing a lot that happened a lot when I was I younger when I was anxious or scared. "Annie? Are you okay?" Mom said putting an arm around me, then I flinched. "I-I-I- do-do-don't know. I-I- have been h-ha-having nightmares fro-fro-from my birth parents and how they-they-they- h-H-hit me." I said tearing up. "Well your running a fever. So I guess no school."
Dad came in "how is my princess?" Dad said with a soft smile. "I threw up-up-up again." Dad came over and picked me up bridal style. And brought me to his room. "You sleep here." Then he kissed my forehead. The comfort of dad laying next to me was nice. He put his arm around me and I put my head on his shoulder and feel alseep.

Sorry for this short update I'm on the bus rn lol and I will always take suggestions for the story I want you guys to be involved with it and have a say. Really I do so please IM me any suggestions you have and I'm always open just to talk if your having a problem or just wanna talk. I may not reply back ASAP (as soon as possible) but I will definitely try to. So yeah thanks I love you all just remember that. And I did this awhile ago comment your name and how old you are and something about you:)
My name is Paige I'm 15 and I'm elite in gymnastics. I wanna go to the olympics one day. So yeah bye!'