Alexander || Complete

In Love?

Xander POV

It's been a month since the baby scare for Tris and I. I think that made us closer, closer than what we were because now we talk to each other as if we're best friends.

I know that's how a couple should be but it feels so good to be around someone who really cares about how your day was. I've been working more and school has been very stressful I don't know what I want to do with my career just yet.

I do know that caring for people and being there to help them get better is my passion nothing else brings me happiness like that does.

"Hey Xan!" I'll finish this realization later then.

"Hey Tris, what are you doing home so early?"

"I wanted to take you somewhere..." Hmm, take me somewhere ?

"Is something happening, something wrong, who died?"

"Nothing is wrong and no one died, can you just get dressed sweetie?"I sigh and turn my heels to the bedroom I decide to be casual and put on some green pants a black top and my jean jacket with my leopard scarf.

"Is this okay?" I ask

"Yes, you look beautiful as always" We get in the car and drive... For a long ass time

"Okay, so are you trying to get as far away from people so they don't hear me scream or something?!"

He laughs "No weird as* I'm taking you some where my mother used to take me" His mother? He's never truly talked about her to me before.

"Okay" He finally make to this cliff like place. It over looked the city.

"This is amazing"

"Yeah, my mom would bring me here every weekend just to have quality time with me. She died before she could have that time with my younger brother. "

Younger brother?

"I thought you were an only child?" He looks down and sighs deeply

"I wasn't always, he died too, car accident, drunk driver and all that."

I sat close to him and held his hand, he'd never told me anything about his family before, it was then I realized I still had so much to learn about him.

"You don't talk much about your mother or your brother. Why not?" Tris looked down at our intertwined fingers for a moment before answering.

"I don't like the way it makes me feel. It makes me feel like I'm a helpless child all over again." I hold on tighter to his hand.

"She was my everything , and when she died it was like, my whole world went upside down. And he was my best friend, my little brother. And I couldn't save either of them."

"What was your mother like?" Tris smiled before saying anything

"She was strong willed and stubborn, but she was kind and loving. She would always make breakfast at 8 in the morning, I used to wake up and smell bacon throughout the house. She was an amazing cook!"

"She sounds bad as*" I say laughing, I wanted to lighten the mood between us. "Your younger brother, how old was he when he passed?"

"He was 6." I didn't press him on the matter, it was hard enough talking about his mother to me, I didn't want him to get upset thinking about his baby brother.

"What was he like?" I ask hoping I'm not stepping over any boundaries

"He was the bravest 6 year old, he would jump from one end of his bed to my end of the bed. Then he'd run around the house stark naked just to have my mother chase after him. He was smarter than I could have ever imagined." He smiled at his memories, before saying any thing else.

"Thank you." Tris says

"For what?"

"For asking about them, I try to push down the reality that they're gone. And even try to forget they ever existed to make the pain stop." It was the most heart wrenching thing I'd ever heard, i couldn't imagine loosing both my mother an brother. "I'm here for you." I rub his hand while he holds mine.

We stood there in comfortable silence, knowing that there weren't words that would be good enough to describe this moment. I really couldn't even think of a word to describe how I felt right now to be honest. I hoped he would tell me more when he became comfortable talking about it. I turned to look at him and i couldn't read the expression on his face...

Calm?

Melancholy?

Nostalgic?

It was hard to tell, though, it was a calming but heavy atmosphere we had going on. I looked out at the city in amazement. Everything that's happened it's only brought us closer to one another. I am free to be myself and I like the way this feels. I just hope it stays this way.

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