His eyes flickered when they met mine. I know this may sound crazy but I need peace in my life. I take a deep breath feeling his gaze upon mine. I look around the park not necessarily wanting to look into his eyes. My hands are literally shaking;he touches my hand making me flinch at the impact.
"You finally wanted to talk" His words came out in shock
"I mean what choice did I have? I can't have you casually showing up at my house, Dylan would kill you" I spoke through my teeth
"I know, but we came here to talk so talk" He demanded
"How have you been?" I sigh
"Do you really care?" He asks laughing a little and I crack a smile for some reason
"Aidan, I am trying. I just--- I just don't know what to say" I look around as if my answer is lingering around the air
"Fine, I am fine. I mean I could be better but how are you?"
"I am still alive so I can't complain" I shrug watching people walk by. A little boy keeps trying to drink the water from the pond and his mother keeps yelling at him.
"You didn't return any of my letters, did you even read them?" I sighed and inclined back not really answering his question. What am I really doing here? "Whenever I had visitors, I had this crazy delusion that it would be you. Not seeing you drove me fucking insane! You acted like we were strangers. I had to find out by my friends to know how you were doing. Danielle being there felt like I was trapped inside of my own head. I had these voices screaming at me, and the mere thought of you was the only thing that kept me sane. So answer my question, why didn't you return any of my letters?" It was now time for me to look at him.
"Why would I Aidan? Why would I hurt myself even more? Why would I want to feel even guiltier? I could not sleep for weeks Aidan, I wanted an escape I couldn't live a normal life if I didn't let go of you. You took the blame for something you didn't do; I committed a crime and guess what Aidan you took the fall for it! In that court room you could have easily said that I did it, but you took one look at me and you said you did it! You have every motive in the world to hurt me right now Aidan! You went to jail because of me! I knew sooner or later you would grow angry with me so I didn't respond ! Even after you cheated on me, you still did everything in your power to protect me! You did everything for me that I would never do for you! And you knew that Aidan!Loving you was like playing Russian Roulette, I never knew when you would kill me. I played your game and I knew all of the rules, I knew what you were capable of, but I didn't care about getting hurt; I just wanted to that sort of thrill." I could feel tears stain my face
"Danielle, I was not letting you take the blame for that, I mean I took part in it too! I wasn't letting you go down like that! I mean for fucks sake I love you, and you fail to realize that. Danielle you couldn't last a day in there, it was hell for me! The thought of you being in a place like that drives me insane." He grabs my hand and my heart just drops. "Danielle, look at me when I am talking to you" I shake my head feeling more tears fall "Why won't you look at me?" He snaps
"Please don't" I murmur
"Don't what" He grabs my face so I look at him
"Don't make me play your game again" He wipes my tears away with his thumb
"Danielle, I'm not worth your tears. I'm not good enough for you and I never was- I cut him off
"Aidan don't, you were- He cut me off this time
"No, just let me say this. I was a shitty boyfriend, but just know my love was real. Just know that nobody will ever love you like I love you. You will always be my Queen, baby girl just remember that. I didn't know how good you were to me until after I lost you. That was my lost, letting you go was the stupidest mistake I have ever made." I slowly nod. He hesitates for a moment but he smirks, and I narrow my eyes at him. He scoots closer to me
"What do you want Aidan?" I roll my eyes feeling a smile crawl on my face
"Right here" He taped his cheek with his finger making me laugh. I leaned forward kissing his cheek, as soon as I was pulling away his lips met mine. I gasp feeling so many good memories. I soon felt my lips dance with his. This is wrong I know, but it's something about his touch that I am addicted to. He slowly pulls away and our foreheads touch. Liam. I quickly stood up feeling bad.
"I have to go" I quickly grabbed my bag but he grabbed my arm pulling me back
"You don't get to run after that just happened, this is no Cinderella movie." He joked
"Stop, Aidan I have to get home! Dylan will get suspicious about my trip to the store" I tried pulling away
"Well it was nice talking to you and letting things off my chest" He kissed my hand and I turned around and ran into a brick wall; A sweaty brick wall. I looked up seeing Liam my eyes widened
"What in the hell are you doing with him?" He grabs the attention of many people in the park.
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Obsessed with Perfection
Romance"If I asked you to name everything that you love, just how long will it take for you to name yourself? " His words made my knees weaken, my breathing faltered "That's the thing Liam, how can I? How can a girl who will never be good enough love her...
