Obsessed with Perfection

Chapter 38

"I-I'm not perfect Liam" I found myself saying. It's about time that I tell him.

"What do you mean? There is nothing wrong with you" He furrowed his eyebrows

"I am the furthest thing from perfect. I put on the façade like I am little miss perfect, but in reality I am a disgrace to my family. People think that I am the happiest person alive, but I'm not Liam. They think that I am this perfect ballerina with the perfect family and friends." I pause and let out a laugh. "I am a sad girl who has to cry herself to sleep at night. I wasn't very happy especially with my body. I used to cut until I went numb. I purged and I even tried to lighten my skin complexion. I'm not perfect at all; I have failure written all over me. I wanted to be a professional ballerina just to prove people wrong. I am proving them right Liam. I wanted to make my mother proud, but I can't even do that. There is nothing special about me, I like to play the victim, but I'm just a murderer."

"You don't have to be perfect. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I don't care what anyone says because you are beautiful and even a blind person could tell you that. Don't change yourself for anybody. Oh and trust me you are no murderer" He grabbed my hand

"I am Liam" I muttered

"You haven't killed anyone" He semi yelled

"I-I murdered my uncle"

"That's not something to play around with Dani" He looked at me and I looked away.

"He tried to rape me, he hit me multiple of times. I didn't intend on shooting him, I-I just wanted to scare him that's all. I shot and killed him Liam and Aidan took the fall for it. That was a week after we broke up because he cheated on me. He felt like he owed me at the time. When he got out he was angry at me because I didn't visit him nor return his letters. I know he didn't deserve death, but I was just so angry and scared at the time. I had to let go of Aidan if I wanted to let go of my past.

"What you did was right, he tried to hurt you. Why didn't you tell anyone what he did to you?"

"He was a lawyer, he knew people who could clear his name. I would have gotten nowhere, and besides no one would believe me. Even when Aidan went to court they were still wary of the whole situation. Some of my family members won't speak to due to that situation. My aunt didn't believe me, even when the bruises were evident. I just wanted to disappear you know? So I tried to disappear twice. I'm too screwed up for this world. I just want everything to be picture perfect, but it will never happen. Everything I touch ends up getting screwed up, I don't have a purpose here."

"I don't care what you did in the past okay? It does not define you. You are my girlfriend and I will stick with you through thick and thin. You are not a screw up Dani, you have a chance to prove them wrong and you will do it. You are not weak; you are the strongest person I know. Don't ever bring yourself down like that again. Don't ever let those words escape your mouth again. You will succeed in life, and all of those people who did you wrong will suffer." He brushed my wet curly hair away from my face. He gently kissed my lips.

"I don't want to be alone tonight" I muttered in his chest

He grazed his fingers along my wrist "Your mom must be worried sick about you"

"How do I explain my bruises?"

"Tell her what happened? I don't know Dani" He heaved out a sigh

"Yea and let me also mention the fact that there are dead bodies in the alley" I crossed my arms

"Say you got into a fight because someone cut in front of you at Taco Bell" he joked

"Yea, like that will go over well" I laughed a little

"It will be okay, and plus I have to make a phone call. I will see you later on tonight, yea?" He kissed my lips softly.