Let Go of Me(BOTDF fanfic)

Can We Start Again, Please?~Chapter Fifteen~

I jolt up to find myself encaged in a gauzy prison. I have to get out, get out! In the darkness, I see the gauze morph into snakes, mouths open wide in a devilish grin as they slither up my cold, drenched body.

"HELP! Somebody help me!"

I scream as the snakes make their way up my torso. I part my lips to make another frantic call for help, but several snakes thrust their bodies into my mouth. They wriggle down my throat, biting, eating their way through the tissue-

"DICE WAKE UP!"

Springing up, I run, and fall face down. My panicking brain acesses my surroundings-  I'm wrapped in the sheet, my legs tangled, a cold sweat covers my body, my throat is raw from yelling, and Ciel sits on the bed a worried expression scarring his good looks.

 Another nightmare. That's all it was. I breathe the air in slowly, letting it flow through me. Carefully untangling myself from the sheets, I bring my legs up to my chest and put my head gingerly between my knees, and repeating the breathing process. My thoughts were settling, becoming clearer. But just to be sure, I remind myself of a few facts, which usually calms me down.

My name is Candice, I'm currently living with a boy named Ciel, I'm mad at something though I can't remember who, or what it is. My scars are healing, and I don't wear gloves anymore. My favorite band is Avenged Sevenfold and I love black licorice. My favorite anime is Elfen Lied and I may or may not be in love. 

Finally, my heartbeat slowed, and I could breathe like a normal person. The sweat on my body evaporated, and my stomach didn't feel like it needed to empty it's contents.

 I raise my head to throw Ciel a quick smile, but a clap of thunder makes me leap up, right onto his lap. Cowering, I shield my face in the solace of his chest, and wait it out. He shushs me as he scratches my back, every now and then whispering little soothing things in my ear. After the thunder goes down to drizzling rain, I stop clutching him so tightly. I move to my side of the bed, which I really didn't have to sleep in if I didn't want to, but I also didn't want to sleep alone. I'm really used to having Sally behind me. How pathetic could I get? Shaking my head, I glanced at the clock. 7:30am. I know I won't get back to sleep now, and even though it's early, I decide to get up. I throw my legs over the side of the bed, and mutter something about a shower before I leave the bedroom. I need to get myself together- this time without anyone's help.

Ciels POV

She's really kind of beautiful, isn't she? The way she clings to you one moment, and refuses to touch you the next. I can see how that can be alluring, and keep you wanting more. I smirk to myself. Though it's a lot more attractive when you give her something to think about.

I waltz across my floor, and open the first drawer on my dresser. Rummaging around, my fingers found what they sought- a few colored rectangles. Harmless right? I move out of the room, down the hallway, past the bathroom where I hear water running, and a little hum of her singing. I make it to my destination- her room. I have a theme for all the rooms in the house- hers, is of course, the dollhouse room. Doesn't it fit nicely? 

I open a few of her drawers, and finally find the underwear drawer. Placing the rectangles strategically under a few pairs, I close the drawers and make my way out of the room, down to the kitchen to make breakfast. Now, all I have to do, is wait.

Dices POV

I hear breakfast cooking, so I hurry to my room to get changed quickly so he doesn't walk in while I'm half naked. Jay- I mean. I wouldn'tlike that. I could care less what he thought. I briskly walk to my dresser, and open the bottom drawer. I finally just settled on my Motionless in White shirt accompanied with shorts because they looked really comfortable right now. I pick up my bra, which I threw on the floor right before I went to bed and fasten it. I open the first drawer, and push around my underwear until I find I comfortble pair- wait. What are these?

Halfway hidden under my Powerpuff Girls underwear(don't judge me) I see Ciel, smiling with one eye winking at the camera. Aww he looks so cute cx. He must have forgot to clear out this drawer before I hastily dropped all of my stuff in there. I did come over kind of short notice didn't I? I carefully pull out the entire picture, only to find he had his arm around someone in the picture. Who.?

Jayy.

The other half of the picture had Jayy, playfully sticking his tongue out at the camera. What. Was. He. Doing. There. He had no right to be in this picture. None at all. How can he look so carefree? Like this is OKAY? I slammed the picture on the top of the dresser only to see there were two more pictures in the dresser.

What secrets would these let out?

This one is at a New Years Eve party, two years ago. Ciel has bags under his eyes, but Jayy is there, right beside him, face glowing with a noisemaker clutched in one hand, the other arm thrown around Ciels shoulders. I feel heat building up inside of me as I slam that picture right next to the other one. One more to go.

With shaking hands, I grip the other one between my fingers. It's upside down in the drawer, so I can see what this one has to hold- yet.

Slowly, I turn the picture over. It's the two of them, again. But this time, their lips are locked on together, as they lay on someones couch. Ciel is on top of Jayy, while Jayy's hand is sliding up Ciels shirt while Ciels hand was tangled in Jayys hair. Unlike the others, someone else took this picture. Something warm tried to make it's way through my eyes, but I wiped it away with my arm.

I wasn't entirely sure of what I was feeling right now, it was a mix of anger, angst, betrayel, and most of all-

Jealousy.

Why am I so jealous? And more importantly, which one am I jealous of?