Let Go of Me(BOTDF fanfic)

~Chapter Seventeen~

Hey guys! SO sorry for the setback, I've had lots of homework lately, and Homecoming arrangements, but here it is! And, if you guys really love me, can you check out my new fanfic Diary Of Lucy? It would really mean a lot to me, and eevn if you haven't seen Naruto, it should still make sense, so please?:3 Thanks!!!:D

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When I woke, it was dark. Groggily I sat up and rubbed my head before checking out the clock which read 8:30 pm. Ugh. There's no way I am going to be able to sleep through the rest of the night, this is going to throw my entire sleep schedule off. I tried to yawn, but my throat was too raw. I immediately snapped it shut before I could do further damage. I can't even think straight- Jayy's the bad guy?

So what about all the good he's done? All the things he's done for me? Sure, they were small, offering me a seat on his lap, watching anime together(angel beats of course), letting him know things about me, letting him in. So why?

Was it real, or fake? Was there some sort of truth behind the lies? My logic told me no, but my personal feelings for him overrided them. He must have some sort of explanation, or a plan or something that would make this make sense. carefully, I pulled my body out of the bed and slipped on some Vans near the door. They were way to big(they must be Ciel's) but I kept them on anyway. From the looks of it, he isn't home yet. Hmm. What is taking him so long?

I shake off that thought and continue on my current journey- across the street. The house was illuminated, but I still didn't want to go through the front door. I don't know why, but I was entranced with the romantic sense of sneaking into the back and making my entrance. I snuck over to the fence and slowly began scaling it. As I reached the top, I hurriedly through myself into the bush. Creeping my head barely above the bushs' edge, I scanned the backyard. All clear. I tiptoed through the grass and made it to the door. My hand was just reaching out to grasp the knob when I heard arguing. Curiously pressing my nosy ear against the wood, I tried to get what they were saying.

"-said you knew something else."

"Well information comes with a price."

The voices were muffled, but it was evident whose they were- can you guess? Dahvie and Ciel. What was he doing here? Well Dahvie of course lived there but what about Ciel?

"What do you want? What is it you're after?"

That one was Dahvie- he was upset. Extremely upset. His voice was hitched and I wanted to help him so badly, but what could I do? Absolutely nothing. All I could do was watch.

"I'm not 'after' anything. I just want them to be happy."

"That's a lie."

Growled Dahvie. Damn. I've never heard him be this mean before. He sounded like he was ready to tear someone's head off, and could do it.

I gulped and silently reminded myself to never get on his bad side.

 I hear footsteps approaching the door, and quickly leap back to my bush(it was beginning to feel like home now.)

"What. Do. You. Know."

Dahvie growled.

"But you already know. You just don't want t say it. You don't want to say it outloud, because that makes it true."

Ciel said. Can he not speak in riddles for two minutes so I could figure out what the hell was going on?! They continued to stare at each other right in the eye until Ciel spoke again.

"You want to know about Hayden."

Time stopped. The wind stopped blowing and the air was still. My heart stopped. What does Hayden have to do with any of this? Dahvies face hardened and he nodded, and time began ticking.

"But, like I said before, information comes with a price."

Ciels playfulness in the matter only angered Dahvie the more, but he kept his fists beside him in a tight clench. Ciel dropped his late expression and a serious one appeared.

"What was Dice to you?"

The question stunned me, and Dahvie too by the expression on his face.

"That's irrelevant."

"Did you hate her?"

"No!"

"Then you love her?"

"No! I mean, not like that or anything..."

I saw what he was doing. He wanted answers, which came out in truth when you're confused or disorientated. First semi-useless, on the topic question. Then as they were still scrambling for answers, hit them with a big one and you'd get your answer. Is he always so manipulative?

"Then why would you take her in?"

"We, just did-"

"Did you know her previously?"

"No we didn't know anything-"

"So she was nothing to you?"

"Damn it Ciel! Fine, you want to know?! She was a pawn! That's it!"

Dahvie was panting, and as he accessed Ciels face, he realized the severity of what he had said. His anger remained.

I couldn't help it. I couldn't take all of this in one blow, it was driving me insane. I whimpered. Dahvie and Ciels head snapped toward the bush, and thanks to my white shirt, I was exposed. Hurriedly I stood, keeping my eyes towards the ground. I was humiliated, did I really think I had a family? My legs umped as I sprinted towards the fence and made my way over it. Faintly I heard Dahvie yelling at me to wait, but I couldn't, I couldn't take it anymore.

I ran, tears cloluding my eyes, until I looked around and found myself in a park. Seeing a fig tree, I threw myself down beside it and wiped my tears away. I swear if I couldn't stop crying I was going to get really annoyed at myself.

Glancing around me, I realized I was in a park similar to the courtyard where Hayden and I met. We were very young....

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It was almost ten thirty. Mom and dad were still dancing around, drunk as could be, twirling aimlessly around the ballroom floor with the other drunken patrons. Boredly I ate another chocalate- my twelfth that night. If mom wasn't so drunk, she would have spanked me after my third.

My wandering eyes meet those of a boy across the room. He seemed to be around my age, if not a bit older. He seemed to be doing the same thing I was doing- Mom liked to call it binge eating. I'm not really sure what that means, but the term sounds appropriate.

As oour eyes met, we both smiled- his hair was dark, and so were his eyes, but his skin was pale. I wondered how I looked in comparison with my dull brown hair twisted into some wierd knot on top of my head. He made his way across the room, towards me. His eyes whispered, "Have we met?", and for some reason I felt we had too. I shook my head no. We hadn't uttered a word to each other when he clasped my hand and smiling broadly, ran with me out of the crowded ballroom, as if saying 'Well, it's about time we meet!" 

When we arrived in the courtyard, we started laughing on the ground hystericallly. To this day I do not know what was so funny, but by God something was. After we sat up, wiping tears from our eyes, he proposed we play a game called Hide and Clap. It was basically a collision of Hide and Go Seek with Marco Polo. Running around, we played for hours, only interupted by the police sirens, looking for two missing children.

I got whipped that night, but I knew it was worth it. I knew I would see that boy again. I didn't even ask his name. I just knew. And we did meet again.

The memory made my insides get warm, for the first time in a while. It was a relief after everything that has happened so far. As I drifted into sleep, I prided myself on the fact I thought abotu Hayden and didn't cry, or question why he left me.

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Hi guys! Again, I am EXTREMELY sorry for the hold up! I had more than a few essays to write, and I'm afraid my next upload will be delayed, for I have finals(though it won't be as long as this delay was, I promise!) Please check out Diary of Lucy, I have four more chapters of that ready to go when someone shows interest!^^