A love so hard {finished}

Chapter 5

*the woods {Dereks POV}*
I found him in the Woods, far away from my house.
He laid on the ground, he wasn't the slightest bit and I ran over to him.
He looked dead, I didn't hear his heartbeat.
- Stiles? Stiles, no! Don't do this! Don't leave! Stiles, stay here!
So many tears poured down my cheeks and fell on his wound. I cried so loudly the whole world could hear me.
- Help! He needs help! Someone! I screamed at the top of my lungs.
I picked up his unmoving body and held him up as I stood up.
I played my head against his chest and listened closely. I could hear a weak, unnoticeable beat, and another, and another one.
I let out a breath of relief and then realized I had to saving, he didn't have many minutes left.
I ran with him in my arms as fast as I could. I fan barefoot on sticks and dirty ground. I've never ran so fast.
I needed to get him to Beacon hills hospital.
As I was running, so many destructive thought were going thru my head.
He's already dead, he will die.
It's my fault, I killed him.
I took the life of the only person I've ever loved so much.
I ran out of the woods and in to the towns hospital.
I'm pretty sure I broke the glass doors, I didn't think of it. I ran up the stairs and ran thru the Goliath looking after a doctor.
Then I saw Melissa walking in the hallway. I needed her now, because she would know what happened to him.
- Melissa! Take stiles to the hospital room! I yelled and she ran over to me. She looked at Stiles wound and immediately called for more doctors.
- Here, carry him to the operating room, another doctor said and pointed to the right.
I ran over there and put him on the operating table.
Doctors dressed in blue came in and pushed me out.  
- Please, I need to stay! Stiles! I yelled and they pushed me out further.
- Sir, you can't see him now.
Then they shut and locked the doors. Just the sound of the doors closing was the only thing I heard in silence.
During the procedure I sat in silence, alone. Not Scott, not Lydia not even Stiles father was here.
I made myself clear my mind so the hours felt like minutes.
Even when they were done operating, they wouldn't let me see him.
They said that he was in a coma and it'd be dangerous to wake him up.
I didn't cry anymore, the pain was to intense to do that.
It was like to many emotions destroyed my feelings.
After image after image of his corpse in my head I had a brief moment where I stood up and ran out. I ran and ran and ran. I ran into the woods.
But I fell down and tumbled further away.
I screamed, loud and long. I'm pretty sure I howled, because I heard another howld close to me. I looked over and saw Boyd.
I ran over to him and saw that his foot was stuck in a foxtrap, the metal had halfway cut thru his foot and he wasn't healing.
- Get me out of this! Derek!
I tried to tear it apart, but it was too tight. I wasnt strong enough.
I ran and got a huge pair off pliers. I geared open the trap and Boyd fell to the ground.
He held tightly on the wound and growled.
- Let me help you too the house.
I helped him and slowly but surely we got there.
He laid down on the couch and I said:
- Don't more until you're fine, you're going to heal.
- Fine. But we need to find Erica.
- She bit you, didn't she? I asked.
He pulled up his shirt and revealed a huge bite. It looked black and yellow.
- Oh no. She did. It's going to heal, now that you're a werewolf.
- Is that what she is? How do you know? He asked and looked at me, scared.
- I am one and yes. I turned her, she's in my pack, since she's a beta, you're alone now, pack less.
- Is that bad? He was clearly scared, but I tried to remain calm.
- I wouldn't say so, but am alpha can protect you. I can make you my beta if you want one. It's the safest.
- But you didn't bite me, how?
- It's an old ritual, a Druids one. We need to suck her venom out of you, then bite you again.
Boyd shut his eyes tightly. He squeezed his fist, troubled.
- I can't go thru that pain again, said and looked down.
- We'll see, you're strong and can keep up with yourself at least for now. For now, stay here. Don't move and just try to put your mind in the game.
I walked away and up the stairs. I stopped for a second and glanced at the blood on the step but just ran up the rest of the stairs.
I sat down my old bed and dust flew all over the place. I barely sleep anymore. Too much was happening. I had so much feelings to sort out.
I squeezed the bed sheets then hit it hard or rage. Or more, frustration. Coming from grief.
Everything was so unreal, I've never felt like this.
Then I started to think about Stiles more and more.
He kissed me, he liked me back. But now, he will hate me and will never talk to me again.
Scott is right. I only hurt people and they had every reason to hate me. Since I've never been loved, I don't know how to show love back. He deserves better then a lonely killer werewolf.
I ruin people's lives.
I only wanted to help Erica become a more confident person, she could benefit from being a werewolf. Then Isaac, he came to me. Not threatening me, just pleading for help.
But I turned Erica, and then she attacked Boyd.
Or did she do it of rage? He clearly didn't know about the supernatural so he couldn't have said yes or agreed, nor asked for it.
Maybe she though she benefited from her transformation and could help her friend understand and be happy? Right now that seems just as possible as her attacking him because it was full moon.
That's when it hit me, where's Erica? It was morning so she could be at school,but I doubt it. She almost never is, she mostly shows up to confront people or ask for favors nowadays.
She's probably looking for Boyd, which means she knows where he is, she knew he was in the woods... And I a trap.
So she must have looked at the empty trap.
And now she knows that he's here...

Then I heard a loud banging on the door and a growl.

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Sorry that this chapter was a little longer, but I needed to fit it all into one chapter for story purposes.

I'll include WAY more sterek action in future chapters and tomorrow I'll try to write and publish at least 2 chapters!

Thanks for reading fam! LY<3