A love so hard {finished}

Chapter 8

*Dereks house {Stiles POV}*

I woke to Derek laying next to me, sleeping.
He was as beautiful as ever, he maybe even looked better with messy morning hair.
I turned around and just looked at him sleep, it may sound creepy but it's like, soothing.
- Stiles? He whispered
- Yeah?
- Stop it.
- What?
- Stop staring at me.
- Can you really blame me? I chuckled.
- I can, he mumbled half asleep.
- Make me, I said while grinning.
- Stiles! He said out loud as if I was annoying.
- Ok, ok! I said... Sourwolf, that I said quietly.
Derek growled a little so I turned around and looked up in the ceiling.
It was almost hard not to turn around again. I just wanted to look at his soft, rosy supple lips.
I reached for his hand under the blanket and he held mine tightly.
We both fell asleep again after that.

The next time I woke up it felt like late morning, the sun was shining through the curtains casting light over the bed.
I looked over and the bed was empty. I didn't really think much of it. Of course I missed him but I didn't think that it was a problem or that he was missing. I sat up and yawned loudly.
I looked around the bedroom and saw a tv, a closet and nothing more than a window.
I stood up on the floor with my bare feet and realized I was completely naked. Bummer.
I looked around for my clothes and saw a pile of teared to pieces fabric.
I sighed and rolled my eyes only to look in the closet.
Because of that I'm so tiny none of the clothes fit me. A thirst for him is basically a dress from me.
So I put on the smallest pair of pants I could find and a surprisingly small t-shirt, still way so big.
With slow and tired steps I walked down the staircase and looked around for Derek. I didn't see him in the kitchen. Then I walked to the living room and saw him sitting on the sofa, completely passed out.
I couldn't stop myself from laughing a little which of course woke him up.
In a quick movement he was sitting straight up and looking at the tv.
- Hey, sourwolf, I said as I walked up to him.
I sat down beside him and he didn't seem bothered by me calling him that.
He seemed deep in though, but then snapped out of it.
- Something wrong? I asked and he shakes his head.
- No, I'm just thinking about Boyd and Erica. They acted kind of weirdly recently.
- I'm sure it's not a problem, they're best friends!
- You're right. I shouldn't worry, not when you're here, he said and turned to look at me.
- About me um, my clothes... Do you like the if they're on rip them into pieces method or what? I chuckled.
- I'll buy you new ones, I promise.
- Thats sweet and all, but it's not necessary.
- Ugh, I hate myself for saying this but I feel an instant need to protect you when you are around me. And I lose all control when you kiss me like that.
Derek said it almost quickly as if he was ripping of a bandaid.
I really didn't know how to respond, he's never talked like that before.
- Don't hate yourself, but there is enough love from me.
- Stiles, everybody around me gets hurt. I want to be with you more than anything. But I don't know if I can see you hurt or change because of me. You're still an innocent child who hasn't even graduated high school yet. You have so much to learn and I don't want to screw you up, he sad with almost a tear in his eye.
I looked intensely at him. Then I put my thumb under his chin and turned his face against mine.
I kissed him for a second then said:
- I want you to be my first, I want to live here with you and I want to grow old with you. I kissed him again.
And if you let me go that will never happen. You would destroy me even more by letting me go now.
I love you Derek Hale and nothing is coming in between us.
I kissed him one last time, this time longer.
- You should go up to our room, you still need to rest and recover, he whispered.
I smiled and stood up.
- Rest? Recover? From yesterday night if you mean that! I chuckled and leaned against the doorframe.
- I'll put on star wars and I'll cuddle next to you?
I laughed and turned around, walking to the bedroom.
I'm pretty sure I fell asleep before he could even bring the movie.

Bring the mo.......

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This was a little shorter than last time but it's ok right?

Anyways, ALOT will change in the next chapter!
So hold your horses and keep reading!

LY<3