A love so hard {finished}

Chapter 9

~ Five years later~

*Dereks house {Stiles POV}*

The first thing I wake up to, besides Derek, was a little wolfpup sleeping in between us. It was always Leia. (Yes we named our pup after star wars deal with it)
She was the youngest and most shy so she often came and tugged in during the night.
Yes, it totally wrecked our sex life but she'll grow out of it!
After that I didn't wake Derek up but went down stairs to cook breakfast for the pups and me. Derek would usually not be hungry around this hour.
As I stood by the stove cooking bacon and eggs I thought about everything that had happened in the last years.

I was now 22 and Derek 28.
3 years ago we found an abandoned pack of sibling wolves, they were all about 1-3 years old.
Derek and I took them as our own and Derek is their new alpha.
Sure Derek was scared about the fact of being a dad in the beginning but he now protects his little pack more than life.
There are seven of them the youngest being Leia and she's 4.
The oldest one is Deaton and he's 7.
Alison passed away in the end of high school. Scott was totally wrecked but now he seemed to have found a new mate. Isaac? Yes it's surprising but as long as they're happy, I'm happy.
Derek and I have been living a dream and I hope I'll never wake up.
Derek loves the pups but they're kind of protective of me because of his well... Grumpy attitude. But I know that they really love him.

I was interrupted in my train of thought when all the pups came running from their bedrooms and sat down at the large table.
I served each one of them with breakfast like habit and stopped before I put bacon on the table where Leia is supposed to sit.
- Where is Leia? I asked and they all shock their heads.
- She's still up with Derek, Luke said and pointed to the stairs.
- Right, they'll come back when Derek wakes up, I said and laughed a little.
I went back and placed the pan on the cold stove and started to clean the countertop.
Yes I felt like a mom and a maid, but Derek would never clean so someone had to!
I guess I'm turning to the mom in the relationship.
Then I heard Leia happily jump down the stairs to the kitchen.
She jumped up in to my arms and I hugged her tightly.
I let her down to the table and served her too.
A few minutes later Derek came walking down the stairs and in to the kitchen. That just made me happy.
- Hey honey, he said to me and pulled me close to him. I kissed him and almost forgot reality until I heard the kids all saying
- Ew, stop it that's icky!
I pulled away and patted his shoulder.
Although I lent in and whispered:
- Come upstairs when the pups are out.
Literally forgetting I had seven werewolf ears around me, hearing every word I say.
I leant back and we both broke out in laughter.
- Ok kids! I yelled as in military. Everybody hop on the school bus!
- What's the point? Deaton said and sighed.
- The point, uh the point! Is explained when you come home! Go now or you'll be late! I said and they all ran out, each picking up their backpack. When the last one ran out, closing the door I turned and looked at Derek.
- Do you wanna scar the pups so bad? He laughed, shaking his head.
- Yeah i want them to cry at night, thinking about their dads! No, but sometimes it's hard living with children who always can hear you.
- Well they're not here anymore... He said and grinned. And you know I made the bedroom soundproof, just to not scar them further.
- Hahahah very funny Derek. At least we have the whole place for ourselves today.
Then he held tightly around my waist and pulled me closer.
He growled sensually and smirked.
I put my arm over his shoulder, going deeper.
His lips were as soft as they were so many years ago. Still as good of a kisser.
We continued over to the living room and he sat down in the sofa. I sat on top of him.
He was holding my head and looking deep into my eyes. He smiled and looked happier than ever.
- I love you so much, I dot know what I would do without you! He said and kissed me again.
Everything he held me so tightly I felt a rush through my whole body.
I loved him so much, nothing could describe it.
The only worry I had was that I was going to grow older, faster then he is.
But I didn't have a second though about it.
I backed off and smiled, holding out my hand.
He grabbed it and we both went upstairs.
I sat down on the bed and the took his shirt off.
I was literally blown away every time I saw his chiseled physic.
He came and crawled over me just like we had done so many nights before.
He sniffed and kissed my throat up to my lips and passionately made out with me.
Slowly, button after button, he tore my shirt off and threw it on the ground. I'm glad he learned to control that.
He kissed my chest and my stomach and I remember the first time he did it so clearly.
He pushed my further on the bed and hopped in sitting between my legs, with mine now wrapped around him.
He held my hands down as for control. Then slightly leant over.
I heard a loud crack in my wrist and a rush of pain.
Before I even had time to scream Derek moved away.
This wasn't as bad as some other injuries he got me in bed, but it was surely bad.
I stopped screaming and had a minor panic attack. My breathing was fast and heavy.
Derek looked at my wrist and saw the bruising and swelling.
- Stay, he said and ran off to the bathroom. He came back with bondage and started slowly and carefully wrapping my wrist with the white fabric.
- Derek, it's not that big of a deal, it's just a minor... I managed to say before Derek cut me off.
- Don't say that Stiles, I've injured you more than once and I can't live with that. There is no excuse.
I felt bad for him, it wasn't his fault.
- You said it yourself, you loose control. I'm the one who has to deal with that! I said in pity.
- With me fucking breaking your arm?! Stiles is this what you want to live with?! Because I sure as hell know I can't!
He was yelling at me and that always gave me panic attacks. I've had them ever since my mother died when something happens or someone yells at me.
I pulled my hand close to my body and looked up at him, scared for my life.
Dereks facial expression went from angry to realizing what he did in a second and he immediately reached for my.
- Stiles, I...
I pulled back my arm and jumped further away from him.
I wasn't mad, I wasn't scared. I lost control.
When I was leaning to the wall I felt rivers of tears about to pour on my cheeks. But i think only one tear fell.
I knew Derek was sorry every time he did that. I guess somethings triggers him when he's around me.
He gently sat down beside me and I rested my head on his shoulder.
He was drawing a circle on my back to calm me down as he always did. It helped a little, but I knew I wouldn't be very energetic for the rest of the day.
I felt bad for Derek. It wasn't his fault. I think it hurt for him than for me.
I was fine after I calmed down.
We sat in calming silence for a couple of hours until the kids came home.
It didn't bother us to be quiet. Sometimes we would get the most out the chest that way.
Then when the pups came home we heard a loud pound on the locked door. We both walked down to open.
All the pups came and hugged me and created a little circle.
- Dad what's wrong? Why do you have bondage? Luke asked.
- Sweetie it's nothing, It was just an accident. I said and tried to calm him down.
Both Luke and Deaton turned around and stared at Derek with glowing eyes.
- You did this to him!
- This is the second time this month!
- Stay away from Stiles! They said while stopping to growl.
I sat down on my knees and looked at them with a smile.
- It wasn't Derek, I just fell. Derek would never harm me.
- I might be young but I can still tell when you're lying. Besides. You have a dried up tear on your face. You only get that from panic attacks. Which you only get when someone is yelling at you, Luke said.
I looked at him, slightly scared from how much he knew and could do. I stood up again and held Lukes hand.
- Come on, you can go and watch some tv while I.. Sort things out.
They all went jumping out except for Luke and Deaton who slowly walked out.
- They hate me, Derek said almost angrily.
- They don't hate you, they're just protective.
- I love you too the moon and back, but I told you I wouldn't be a good father.
-  And you didn't lie, you're a great one. You've taught then a lot. Maybe too much.
Luke could sense a heartbeat... You know. Sometimes I get worried that our love would end, and the pups wouldn't have an alpha. I mean, you're their alpha! You're the one who's teaching them about life!
- Stiles.
- Huh?
- Shut up.
My heart melted when I thought of the first time he said that.
- I will never ever stop loving you, it's not even a possibility. So if you please just shut up and kiss me? He said and I smiled.
I kissed, sitting on the countertop and him standing between my legs.
I held him on the cheek and before we got to in to it he backed off.
He gave me a short kiss on the forehead and then we walked out to the living room.
All the kids were in the sofa so he sat down in the chair and I sat on his lap, leaning against his chest, just like when I was a teenager.

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Sorry for a quite long chapter but I tried to fit two short chapters into one!

LY<3