A love so hard {finished}

Chapter 7

*the hospital {Stiles POV}*

- Stiles? Derek whispered over his breath and looked down.
He was sad, ashamed and upset. Maybe even worried but it was clear that he was trying to cover it with a blank
I knew I was pain, but it was in the back of my mind and I didn't care anymore. Just seeing Derek fixed my pain. I was caught up in his beatific hazel eyes and his black hair was shining in the light.
- I don't hate you, Derek, I uttered quietly. 
He looked up.
God damn it's crazy how much I wanted to kiss him again.
His chiseled jawline was enough to kill.
- You should, you have all the reasons to, he said.
- Name one! I trust you.
- You put your trust in my hands, and I nearly killed you.
- Thats the point, almost, you didn't. I'm not afraid anymore. And I'm fine.
Derek didn't look convinced. He walked over to the bed and sat down in front of the pillows where I sat at the end.
- You can't be around me, you'll only get hurt. I can't let that happen.
- I'm fine, really and I don't care!
He looked away and I leaned over. I lasted back between his legs and rated my head against his surprisingly soft chest.
We laid in warm silence for a while and I just enjoyed his company.
Derek was all you could look for in someone. He's just not open, about anything I guess.
All I heard was the sound of his slow heavy breathing above me.
He kept playing with my now long hair.
- What did you dad say? Derek said quietly and kept playing with my hair.
- I don't know if he's been here off he even knows that I'm awake. I don't know what he's going to say about us. I said after I paused for a second.
Derek was quite for a second before uttering:
- Us?
- Derek, I want to be with you. Whether you like it or not I don't care, I know you feel something too.
Derek stopped moving for a bit and I felt his heart beat faster.
- I told you not too... He started.
- I know! I should stay away! But do you really think I care about that? Whenever I see you my heart skips a beat and neither you and me can stop that. I know what I want, I'm ready for this Derek!
I knew it was risky to say this to him, he maybe wouldn't ever talk to me again, he wasn't shy, just closed.
Then when he started talking I could almost hear the grin on his lips.
- Have you ever been close to death?
- Just was, I answered.
- Lost someone you love?
- Derek, my mother!
- Faced a werewolf? He grinned.
- No but something worse, I said and turned to look at him. I kept leaning closer to him without him resisting.
- I'm in love with one, I smiled and quickly leant in to kiss him.
He received it and put his hand on my cheek, reaching in deeper and deeper.
With the other hand he slides down my back, carefully avoiding my would.
But it didn't really matter how much he avoided it, it hurt like hell.
I moaned of pain and he moved away.
- I'm fine, it barely hurts anymore.
He looked down at my chest.
- You're lying, you're not ok! You're not healed yet. You need to rest, Stiles!
I rolled my eyes and laid down. He held my hand for a second until he walked away.
- I'll be back in a moment, I'll talk to Melissa, he said and closed the door without letting me say a single word.
I smiled and bit my lip of excitement. Where we officially a couple? When would I tell Scott? He hated Derek!
It felt like seconds until he was back, though he was away for probably 15 minutes.
The happiness when I saw him was unmeasurable.
But he didn't look to happy.
- Stiles, your father is away in New York right now on a mission. He won't be able to come back in time.
If I'm going to be honest, it didn't bother me at all. I wanted alone time to think and be with Derek.
- You'll stay at my place for a couple of days, maybe a week.
The biggest grin grew inside me but I had too keep it in.
- Great, wouldn't want to stay at Scott's anyways, I think he has Alison over every night.
Which is kind of weird considering they aren't really daring and her dad despises werewolves and even more stuff that I probably shouldn't mention because Scott will kill me but it involves a bunny costume. AND! We need to am a daily schedule if I'm staying at your house. It's pretty clean but at least try to keep it that was. And I have a couple of questions! 1, will I b sleeping in your bed? 2, is food available? I mumbled forever about everything and Derek half smile quickly turned into an annoyed expression.
He walked over fast me put a finger over my lip to shut me up.
- Stiles. He moaned.
- huh?
- Shut up. He said and took of his fingers. Instead he pulled his hand to the back of my head and got a grip on my head, I felt that he was gentle.
He leaned in for a kiss that I happily received. He licked my lip as I gracefully slid my hand up and down his muscular chest.
It was too good to be real, I though in my head. Me having Derek Hale all for my own.
He was the only thing making me truly happy nowadays.
It's ironic how the happiest most sarcastic person can love a cold, lonely person who I've never seen laugh.
I guess opposites really do attract.
He suddenly pulled away and whispered:
- The nurse said you're fine, lets finish this at home.
Just him uttering those words sent me shivers down my spine and a burst of happiness and excitement like a firework inside me.
He kissed me once last time on the lips and then looked at my folded clothes on the chair. I nodded and he walked out.
I changed to my normal clothes that now smelled of hospital. Yay.
I had way too much on my mind to care.
I walked out to find Derek standing just outside. And he was smiling? That's new.
Without needing to say a word we walked out of the first doors to the elevator. We steeped in and I pressed the button for the first floor.
The doors slowly shut close and then Derek quickly pushed me up against the elevator wall and kissed me passionately. Then he moved down closer to my neck, kissing and moaning lightly. I knew we were going to stop soon, but I couldn't resist, mostly because he was still pushing me against the wall and I couldn't move. Then right when the doors were doing to pull open, he pulled away quickly and stood as normal.
I was basically out of breath when the doors opened and people started rushing in.
I just followed him to his car, then we drove home. Beside the wall.
Before I could even take a moment to look around he grabbed my waist and pulled me closer. Without doubting I kissed him passionately and he went deeper. As our touches fought for dominance we moved up the stairs and up to the bedroom. He pushed me down on the bed. Clearly, he liked the dominant role.
He crawled on top of me and kissed my lips, moving down to my neck, chest and stomach. He went slow, not doubting I think he just wanted to tease me. And boy did he do it.
I moaned over and over again.
Let's just that that was a good night of.... "Love"?

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