Justin's Journal~

March 6th, 2016

 Hey Friend,

Been what, a couple weeks? Lol, well in that time nothing much has really happened. Nothing much really happened this weekend, Harley Quinn was supposed to be staying with me for the weekend but plans fell through because of a lot of stuff. So, stuff happened, and now he should be headed back to Florida. Would've liked to see him but hey, what are ya gonna do am I right? I just wish he could've at least seen everyone else. They really wanted to do something with him this weekend. Oh well, I guess there'll always be another time. Let's just hope he comes back before Sweetie goes too. Yeah, she wants to move back home for her junior year. It's gonna be a hard year for all of us not having her around, another piece of the puzzle missing. Seems like that's happening a lot to me, but I guess it'll just help me to not be dependent on someone immediate to me. To try and learn to still have them with me no matter what the distance. Whatever it may be, I'll get through it. I mean, I'll still have Hero right? Please, let me at least have him, him and Afro. 

Oh btw, something I haven't done in a while, add a dream to my journal. Had this dream last night : 

I had a dream that I was at another school (it wasn't my school but it felt like it) and I saw Hero and Sweetie. But for some reason, I knew that they didn't know me. So I went over to Hero and said "Hey, where's Sweetie?" and he said "Hi, uh she's up there", and pointed to her at the top row of the bleachers. So I immediately grabbed his arm and her arm and dragged them into a room. "Hey, get your hands off me" she said. "Sweetie, please it's me, Justin". I replied. "I don't know anyone named "Justin". she said. "Hero, you've gotta know me right? I've known you since 8th grade". I told him, but he said he didn't know me either. So I told them, "All right, I'll show you how much I know you. Sweetie, your favorite band is Breaking Benjamin, you love Benjamin Burnley to death!" I told her. She smiled, so I knew I was right, and that this was the real her and not someone who just looked like her. "And Hero, you, you love parkour! You both love the first season of Attack on Titan!" They both looked at each other and smiled. "You do kinda know us, but what did you say your name was again?" asked Sweetie. "My name's Justin, but you know me as Lortay don't you Sweetie?" I say. "L..Lortay?" she asks coming closer to me. "Lortay, it is you!" she laughs. "You remember me!" I exclaim. "Do you remember me Hero?" "Yeah, I do J". I was so excited that they remembered me again, because a life without them would've been terrible. But just as they remember me, I see light flashing around me and I say "No, no, I'm not ready to go yet!" The light flashes in front of me and I'm sitting in a classroom, at a table, in front of them. "You guys are here?" I ask. "Of course we are Lortay, why wouldn't we be?" Sweetie asks. "And you can see me!" I exclaim. "Yeah, yeah, calm down Justin." Hero says trying to quiet me a bit. "So am I back?" I ask. "Uh, you never left, but ok" Sweetie replies. I'm just so happy to be 'back'. But then I look down at my notebook, and I see two drawings of Hero and Sweetie, and they start talking to me. But only I can hear them. I assume they're the Hero and Sweetie I was with that forgot me.

It was a weird dream, don't know what it means, maybe it means they'll eventually forget me one day. Or I'm afraid that they'll forget me, or even forget themselves. It felt like they themselves didn't even know who they were...

Ah well, just another look into the minds of Mr. Crazy lol

Night old friend,

Justin