We're Alright Though [Trigger Warning:self-harm And Drinking.] [Ashley Purdy]

Cause this is a wasteland my only retreat

I walk back to my room alone. It's 2am and I haven't stopped thinking about Ashley. Why the hell would he keep something like that away from his band mates, his friends, me?

I shake my head to rid myself of thinking of the worst but, thats what I'm good at. I always find ways to make it worse. I think about things way to much and I usually do things that are stupid as hell while thinking.

I place my hand on the once warm door handle and slowly open it. It's completely dark except for the sliver of light coming from the waning moon. I sigh and shut the door.

My hand searching for the light switch. I finally find and turn it on. A gasp escapes my lips when the room becomes lit. Its completely torn apart. The beds are in different places, the clothes from the dressers are all over the floor.

I take a slow step forward and look around. I gasp again as I see Ashley holding my locket and sitting on the floor facing the wall. "A- Ash..?" I ask, my voice barely coming out as a whisper.

He shakes his head then puts it in his hands. "I'm sorry...I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to.." He cries and throws the locket. I furrow my brows and take two steps closer. "Ash what happened." I press.

"I fucked up babe. I'm so sorry." "Goddamnit Ashley, what happened!?" I yell. He turns to me. His eyes are puffy and red and he's holding a bottle of whiskey.

"I was walking back and I saw that Kinzie chick and I went to go tell her off but she kissed me." I freeze. "Ash-" "I'm so sorry Amethyst..I was just mad and I didn't kno-"

I walk up to him and rip the bottle out if his hands. I hold it up and look at it. It's empty. "How did you get this in here?!" I demand. "Kinzie had it in her office and-" I throw the bottle and it shatters against the wall.

He flinches. "Why the hell were you in her office?" I ask, blinking away tears. He looks up at me and shakes his head. "I kissed her back Amethyst..but then I...I messed up Ame." I laugh to hide the pain and tears.

"So you fucked her. Wow, why am I not surprised." I say crossing my arms. He struggles to stand up. "You cheat on me with a nurse who beat me up and then you drink again. Nice fucking job Purdy!" I yell.

"Amethyst i-" "I bet you were sober when you fucked her huh?" He looks down confirming my question. I feel hot tears run down down my cheeks. I turn around to grab my locket and some clothes.

I stuff them in a bag and then grab my phone charger and anything else I need. "What the hell are you doing?" He asks staring at me. "Why the fuck does it matter to you? Why don't you just go play with your little slut." I spit.

(Kinzie isn't a slut guys. And she isn't mean irl. It's just for the story. She's really my bestie...sorry kinzie😂) I turn towards the door. I stop and look back at him. "I'm surprised you even stayed this long." I whisper and walk out the door and shut it quickly.

I sigh and pull out my phone to check the time. 2:37. Shutting it off I see my reflection, my makeup is running down my face mixed with tears. Shaking my head and wipe my eyes.

I begin run towards the back door not caring about being seen. When I get to the door I force it open. A high pitched sound pierces my ears. "Shit." I whisper. They put an alarm on the door. Took them long enough.

I run out the door. I run without looking back. I hear people behind me and I finally look back. I see many nurses and a few patients looking out side. None of them see me as I run. Good thing I always wear black. I stop and catch my breath.

That's when I see a nurse pointing in my direction and running towards me. I sprint as fast as I can. My legs grow tired as I turn a corner. I look behind me. I must have lost them. I pull my phone out and text someone I never thought I would text again.

A=Amethyst
R= Ronnie
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A: hey, I need a place to stay.
R: yeah sure. Where are you?
A: by the city market on 5th.
R: ok. I'll be there soon. How the hell did you get out anyways?
A: long story I'll tell you when you get here.
R: ok.
A: k.

I shut my phone off and run into the store. I grab two monsters and I see a pack of disposable razors. I glance at my wrists and bite my lip. I grab the razors and walk towards the check out. I buy them and walk out side.

I see Ronnie's car and walk towards it. I open the door and get it. "Hey. Thanks for doing this." "Yeah. So. What happened." I look at him. "Ashley. He fucked a the same nurse who beat me up." I stares at me.

"Was he drunk?" I shake my head. He nods. "Sorry." He says and he begins driving. "Thanks."
I stare out the window as we drive to Ronnie's house. We pass the hospital and I see a bunch of nurses and some police cars.

"You're in deep shit girl." I laugh. "Yeah." We stop at a red light and he turns to me. "I don't want to see any of them." I say. "Why don't you just come on tour with us." He says pulling forward and then stopping again. "Really? On warped?" I ask.

He nods. "You wouldn't have to talk to them. We do have a few shows right after theirs but you could just avoid them." I nod. "Yeah. Why not." I say smiling and looking out the window again. It might be hard but fuck it. I avoid people for a living.

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I love this chapter but hated writing it. I didn't want to do this but I'm excited for her to go on tour with Falling in Reverse. How do you think its gonna go?? Oh btw I pissed myself off when I was writing about Ashley and what he did lol. Love you guys💖💖💕💖💜😍😍