We're Alright Though [Trigger Warning:self-harm And Drinking.] [Ashley Purdy]

I'm not a vampire but i feel like one

I wake up to the sound of my phone buzzing. I rub my eyes and grab it off the nightstand next to me. Without bothering to check the caller ID I click the green button. "Hello." I say, my voice hoarse from sleep.

"Amethyst! Where the hell are you the nurses are pissed and they have cops trying to find you!!" Emma yells into the phone. "Does it matter?" I ask sitting up.

"Yes!! Ashley is worried ab-" "I don't give a shit about Ashley. And it really doesn't matter because I'm not coming back." I say pulling the phone away from my ear and ending the call. "Fuck me." I whisper throwing the phone. My head falls into my shaking hands.

A knock at the door startles me. I jump out of bed and pad over to the door. I open if to see Ronnie and Jackie. "Morning." Jackie chirps. I laugh and shut the door behind me.

"You know, this is the part where you start jumping up and down while screaming cause I'm your favorite guitarist." I shake my head. "Don't flatter yourself Vincent." I say hitting his arm. I walk down the stairs. "Amethyst?" I look back.

"You might want to change." Jackie says innocently. (Yes, I'm making Ronnie and Jackie look super innocent and what not... sometimes.)
I look down. I'm wearing super short pyjama shorts and a shirt that says "who needs tits when you have you have an ass like this." Shirt (yes, from die antwoord's vid for Babies on Fire. Welcome Kinzie)

I furrow my brows. "Why?" As if on cue I hear somebody behind me. I turn to see the rest of falling in reverse and part of om&m. I feel the air leave my lungs. "Holy shit." I say. They all laugh. I see Austin eyeing me. I blush and look down.

"Told ya." Jackie says triumphantly as he pushes past me. "I'm gonna..go change." I say quickly and sprint up the stairs. I open the door and shut it quickly. My back hits the door and I laugh quietly. I walk over to the bed and grab my bag.

As I'm pulling clothes out I feel my phone buzz under me. I sigh and grab it. *10 new messages*

E-emma, A-andy, M-mikey, Am- Amethyst

E- Where the hell are you!!
E- Amethyst are you OK??
E- hello??????!!!
M- what the fuck!!! Where are you!!

A- Amethyst please we're worried about you please just answer us..

E- please I'm getting scared now.
E- Amethyst you better fucking answer me!!!

A- you cant just leave!! Somebody is gonna find you just come back please if you wait longer you will make it worse!!

E- Ame, I need you please.

M- just come back. You're making it worse. Ashley is worried sick about you.

Am- I'm fine guys. Just don't worry about it.

I sigh and set my phone down. Grabbing my clothes I strip of my pyjamas. I throw on high waisted shorts, and an 'all the hate goes to my dick' shirt. I pull on black knee high socks and combat boots.

I grab my makeup out of my bag and skip over to the bathroom. I apply thick winged eyeliner and heavy mascara. I brush through my fading hair and look around. "Dammit." I say quietly.

I hope the door and walk out into the hallway. "Ronnie?" I yell, my accent thick. He peeks up the stairs. "What?" "Do you have a straightener?" I ask fiddling with my locket. "Yeah, it's in the drawer below the sink in the bathroom by the kitchen." He says.

I nod. "Thanks, love." He laughs and walks away. I skip down the stairs and walk towards the bathroom by the kitchen. I stop when I see that the door is closed. I'm about to walk away when I hear a muffled moan come from the bathroom.