We're Alright Though [Trigger Warning:self-harm And Drinking.] [Ashley Purdy]

You took my Monster?!

My eyes fluttered open as I heard voices. I groggily sat up and rubbed my eyes. "Hey look who's fianally up." Jinxx said laughing. I smiled and playfully hit his arm. Im gald I made up with Ashley. The thought from last night popped into my head. I pushed it away. "What time is it?" I asked my voice laced with sleep. "2:30."

I jumped up. "What! Shit!" I said and ran to the bathroom to plug in my/Ashley's straightner. The guys walked up. "Umm..why did you just freak out?" I rushed as I put my eyeliner and mascara on. "I have group therapy and if I miss it again im on room lockdown and lose my visiting rights."

The guys laughed. I straightened my hair not to mention burning myself a few times. I shoved Jake out of the way and shut the door. When I opened it I was wear black jeans, a falling in reverse muscle shirt and black ripped jean and red vans. I walked over to my night stand and grabbed my phone. *3 new messages*

I unlocked my phone to read them.
(M=Mikey, A=Amethyst)

M: hey hows it going with Ashley?

M:Hello? Everything ok??

M: Amethyst please txt me back...im getting worried

A:hey everything is fine. I just slept here since well, its my room

I click my phone off and walk yo the door. Before I leave I turn to look at the guys. "You still gonna be here later?" I ask. "Yeah." Jake says not looking up from his phone. I laugh and walk out the door. I get to emmas room and knock on the door. I check the time. 2:53. C'mon emma.

As if on cue she throws the door open. "Let's go bitch." I say she flips me off and laughs. we head to the room where thearapy was. Emma walks in and sits down. I head over to the fridge. I really need a monster. Before I can open the door to grab it some girl takes it. "Hey!" I say crossing my arms. "Hi." She says looking me in the eye. "That" I gesture to the can in her hand, " is mine."

"Does it have your name on it? No it doesnt. So its not yours." I like this girl. " who are you anyways? And why are you here? I havent seen you before." I ask shutting the door to the fridge. "my names Payton an-" she gets cut off by the session leader clapping his hands. "Okay. Lets start." I walk over to emma and payton sits next to me. "Whos that?" Emma whispers to me. "Payton. She took my monster and shes lucky I like her."

Emma laughs and I smile. "Ok so it looks lile we have somebody new." The group leader points to payton. "Could you tell us you name, why you are here, and an interesting fact about you." Payton sighs and stands up. Its then I notice how skinny she is. "My name is Payton , im here because I have anorexia and depression, and my mom forced me to come so if any of you try to talk to me or touch me I will not hesitate to kick you and the throat and stab you with a fork."

She says with her arms crossed. Emma and I lose it. My side starts to hurt from laughing. Holy fuck. I have to be friends with this girl. The session leader clears his throat and starts his lecture. After an hour him rambling on about how we can help ourselves and others, it was over. "I never want to go back." Emma says. "Its funny how he thinks it will actually help us." I say.

Payton and emma laugh. "Sorry for taking your monster by the way." Payton says. "Its fine. What room are you?" I ask as we approach emmas door. "346. Im in there with this pretty hot guy. He reminds me of andy biersack." Emma and I stop in out tracks and look at eachother. "You like bvb?" I ask.

"No. I love bvb." I let out a small yelp and laugh. "Why?" "Come with me." I say pulling her by her wrist. "Do you have a favorite?" Emma asks. "Andy." Emma frowns. I laugh. "Jealous much em?" She glares at me. "What?" "Nothing." I say stopping at my door. I can hear voices.

Sounds like they all are in there. Fuck yes. This will be amazing. "What the fuck are you doing." "This is her room." Emma says excitedly. "Ok...and?" I smile and without warning I throw open the door. The guys look up as we walk into the room.

"Sup bitches." I say laying down on the bed. I hear a high pitched squeal and look over at payton. She's red and looks like she cant breath. Yup. Fangirling. "This is payton. Met her today. She took my monster." I say laughing. "Hi." She says timidly.

Probably trying not to scream. The guys all say hi and she finally calms down. I tell her that ash is my roommate. We've been talking for a while when I notice her start to shift uncomfortably. I follow her gaze and see emma sitting on Andy's lap and him playing with her hair. I sigh. Shit. How will this work. Hold the fuck up amethyst. You arent matchmaker, I think to myself.

After hours of talking. I decide to head to mikeys room. "I'll be back in a little." "Ok." Ashley says smiling at me. I feel my heart flutter. I walk out the door . "Dammit Purdy." I whisper and walk to mikeys room. I cant just date mikey for a month and then dump him cause I like ashley. Fuck my life.

I knock on his door. It opens and reveals a shirtless mikey. "Hey love." "Hey babe." I say. He hugs me. Thsi doesnt feel right I cant do this. But I cant just dump him. I walk into the room. What do I say. "Rocky, I gotta tell you something." "I turn and look at him. "Ok. Whats up?" He scratches the back of his neck."well tour starts in 3 days and last for at least 3-4 months. Plus, we're making new music."

"Thats great but what about the distance?" I ask. "Thats what I wanted to tell you. I-i dont know if we can be together." I froze. Yeah it made this easier but I love michael. I really do. I felt tears begin to sting at my eyes. "O-ok." I say.

My voice cracking."im sorry I still love you but it would be hard." He says. A tear escapes my eye. He then hugs me and I just cry. I love him. After standing there for ten minutes I say goodbye and walk back to my room. I open the door to see no one. They must've all left. "Ash?" I call out wiping my eyes again. Nothing. I sigh decide to shower.
I dont bother to dry my hair. I just get in my unicorn onesie and get in bed. It takes at least an hour to finally fall asleep. Throughout the night I slip in and out of sleep due to constant nightmares and the voices in my head. Somewhat concious of ashley being in the room. I decided just to get up.

I walked over to my dresser and pulled out something from under all off my clothes. I havent used this in a while. I walk to the bathroom and close the door. How have the not found this. I hold the cold metal in my hands. I hold it to my wrist but before I can do anything there is a knock at the door. "Amethyst? You sure as hell better not be cutting." Ashley says. I grip the blade hard. "Amethyst, stop. Please."

He begs jiggling the door handle. Shit. I didnt lock it. Goddamn. The door opens and Ashley steps in. He looks at my hand. Blood starts to drip on the floor. I open my hand showing him the blade. I had held the blade to tight. Shit. He grabs it and flushes it down the toilet. "What the fuck!" Yell at him.

He just grabs me and pulls me towards my bed. Laying me down he looks at me. "You will just be in here longer if you do that. So dont do it again." He says. I start to sob. He then hugs me and just holds me. After a little he eventually lays down next to me.

"Promise you wont do it again." He whispers in my ear. I breathe out. "I promise." I feel him smile against my neck. I've never broken a promise and sure as hell never will.