Pathetic love

Part 12

Few weeks went by and I got a ticket to LEDApple's concert. It was my first kpop concert ever and I was just sooooo excited about it. On my way to the concert venue I got a message from Mark. He was asking if I still like him. I told him shyly yes and asked him then the same question.

"Hannah... I can't answer to it... sorry..." he replied. That just boosted my hope. If he didn't like me, then he could have said it straight to me. But he said he can't answer to it so it means he still likes me. 

I closed my phone then and enjoyed the concert which was actually really amazing.

Week after the concert I became sick so I just rest at home. I was watching a korean movie while Rose, Mark's friend, texted me.

"Hannah have you watched The Fault In Our Stars?" she asked me.

"No. What is it?"

"It's a movie and you need to watch it! Watch it today! You can refer to it and after you have watched it, you'll understand why", Rose said.

Then I got again a new message. This time it was from Mark. And it was in korean. 

"Yeobo annyeong!~ Nadu~~u saranghae~~^^ wa~~neon jinjja ddeukeopbko kwiyeoyueo!!! naeil saekseureur haja! kkk oneureun chwikowi bami eottda!:*****" his message said. (It was in korean so I couldn't fully understand it.

"Whaaaaat???" I sent him

"Sorry it wasn't for you! It was meant to someone else. I really hate kik!" He said then. He asked me how I was and when I told him I was feeling bad, he claimed it was because of him.

"I want to say sorry. Its all my fault. Theres nothing wrong about being a kpopper and your parents and friends need to understand that. Please forgive me everything what made you sad, nervous, mad or annoyed!!! I dont want you to cry!! Be a strong girl! And remember whatever ever happens, I practice every day and night because i think that theres still one girl. Named Hannah and her dream is to become my fan and wants me to her country to holda concert. And some day i'll meet her. That helps. I think about it and try for you Hannah. so please! dont cry and SMILE! BE HAPPY AND STRONG AND ACCEPT LIFE HOW IT IS!! We both have hard times... but we both are strong and will get over it someday. Promise?" Mark wrote and I cried and smiled while typing "I promise" to him.

Then he asked me if I had watched the movie already. He told me that he was so busy and told Rose to tell me. He gave me the address so I could watch it. I watched it in the evening and literally cried during it. But I still couldn't understand how it refers to me and/or Mark.

On the next day HE was the one to send the first message. We chat for awhile. Mostly about the movie but also about other things. I told him that I pray for him and wish everything good for him whenever it's 11:11.

"Hannah... You just made me cry... I don't deserve that. Look, you don't really know me... And why? Why you are being so nice to me" he said. I told him that because he is an incredible person and also he is my friend.

"You should pray and wish for yourself" he said

"Okaaaaaay" i replied

"Okay" he answere

"Okay" I replied to him

"Okay" his response

"Okay"my response

"Okay"his response

"Okay"my response

"xD omg" he said. (This okay okay thing is from The Fault In Our Stars and it means that they will love each other forever)

Few weeks went by again and few our relatives passed away and I hadn't hear anything about Mark. I just looked the screenshots from our chats to keep myself happy.

On one sunday in august before school started we went to watch a movie called If I Stay. It was really good and I just thought about Mark and me during the whole movie. After the movie I opened my phone and saw multiple messages from Mark. He wanted to know my kakaotalk ID and so i told him. Soon after that someone added me there. She said her name was Tina Kim. She seemed very nice and she sent me two pictures from Mark. One which he took when we still dated and another one which was black and white.  Also I asked Mark in what kind of group does he train and he told me that he trains in a group for teens, dancers, singers and he got few friends from there. Also he said that he got 9 from dance exam.

Tina seemed really nice and we kind of became friends.

On Monday our work practice started. I went to gardenia with my friend Emily. Our work practice lasted two weeks and we were working so hard. And to be honest. I'm never ever going to work in gardenia anymore. During our work practice I had plenty of time to ponder about everything. Well mainly about my online life.

Those two weeks went by and we were again at school. We had some french visitors in our school and they were teaching us some french. Of course it was easy for me since I've been learning french already for 5 years. On our french class these french students and teachers came to our class and we went to our home economics room to bake some Finnish pastries. They divided us into several small groups and I was in a group for two 17 year old boys and one girl from our class and of course me. After we got everything ready, the other girl sat with her friends and our teacher put me sit with the french boys and a french teacher so it was a bit awkward but I survived from it. And I have to admit that one of the guys were really handsome. And he was also pretty tall. When they left, the handsome guy said salut to me (Bye or hi in french).

On the next day we had just a normal school day. Well at least I thought so. We went to our English lesson and I sat next to Veronica and Jenny. Emily was in front of me and Lucy was in front of her and Nora was just behind me. 

"Good morning my lovely students! I have honour to tell you that we will have some nice guests here today. Of course I'm a bit sad since we won't have English but I think it's still good", our teacher announced and then the door opened. There came two boys and one girl. One of the guy's eyes widened kind of when he noticed me.

"You, me, baked", he said with broken English with a nice french accent on top of that. I felt how the blush started rising on my face and I just nodded shyly.

"Hannah what? Did you really baked with him? He is so handsome!" Veronica asked enthusiastically.

"Yeah", I stated and turned my head to our guests.