Pathetic love

Part 16

I was feeling quite terrified after seeing Mark's message. It was a bit unconfortable since i had do sit between three people even tho the ok amount is having 3 people at the  backseats.

"One of the trainees took my phone and he saw all of our texts. and then he told to our CEO. Im so sorry Hannah... Maybe it's just better if we behave like we never knew each other. You can get over with this. Time heals the wounds. Thats the saying" i read and tears were starting to form into my eyes.

"Mark... But I cant live without you. You cant leave me. Please Mark..." I sent him

"Thank you for everything. For making me happy and cheering when im sad. You know Tina... Yea she wasn't serious because she is a childhood bestfriend not a real gf like you"

"Oh", thats all i could answer to him. I was so shocked i couldnt think straight anymore. 

"You wanna hear a story?" he suddenly asked. I agreed and he started telling me the story.

"I had a gf whom i was really inlove with and after she left me i almost jumped off from the roof of our house. I was already up there but my friend climbed up and saved me from killing myself. yea thats kinda it. Hannah im so sorry that im not able to handle your fragile soul. It is only my fault and you have to remember that Hannah.. you did nothing wrong. Im going to remember you forever and im always going to be sorry for you for what i did and im never going to forget you. No matter what people say, they are just jealous of your perfection. You dont have to be so straight forward. No hannah. Im not dumping you. I could never be dumping you. Youre too important for me tou be dumped. You just have to understand me... Please dont be mad nor sad. Hannah im so stressed atm and my life is so hard right now. But im trying my best hannah. Im trying my best for you. I try to keep smiling bcuz i dont want you to be sad and all you can say is that am i dumping you??" he said. unfortunately i didnt have anymore battery on my phone so i just wasnt able to answer him anymore. It was really such a shame since I really wanted to still answer to him and talk to him. It felt like its going to be our last convo and thats whhy it mattered to me so much.

It was really hard to keep myself not to cry since the people were still besides me and my parents were sitting in the same car of course. We drove for awhile and finally dropped off my dad's friends. For the rest of the trip i just shut my eyes and started sleeping while still remembering everything what happened between Mark and me today.

"Hannah, wake up. We are home already. Come on. let's go inside and you can sleep on your own bed", said my mum and I woke up and went inside. Immediately when I went in, I plugged my phone and started charging it and finally fell asleep.

In the morning when I woke up, I sent a message to Mark: "This is going to be the hardest thing on my life. Im gonna miss you so much". It didn't take much time when he actually replied to me: "I am actually going to miss you more. I am sorry. Again. For everything. Just remember... That theres one person here in korea who still loves you and misses you. Hope this will make you feel a little better. Nado saranghae hannah <3 always and forever okay?" i just replied okay and started crying. I was so glad that my parents didn't wake up and that I could just be by myself for awhile.