Pathetic love

Part 23

I went to school normally. But even though my day started normally, it wasn't normal at all since I had an entrance exam to IB school. I was super nervous. After the lunch my mum came to pick me up from school and we went towards the IB school. We went in together. There were more than 200 students. so many asians around me. And so many handsome guys. Anyways. we followed the teacher to the exam room and there it all started. They gave us really precise guidelines and then they gave the test papers. they tested our finnish, english and math skills. I was really confident with english and finnish but math seemed like a true hell to me. After the exam I went out from the building to the parking lot where my mum already waited me.

"So how did it go?" she asked me. I told her that it went fine. We went back to home and had dinner and then I went to sleep. 

The next day was a weekend. But unfortunately and also fortunately we had to go to my besties place. On the way to their place I was talking with Sangyoon. He accused me being extremely selfish. He also told me that Marissa is flying tomorrow to Japan. She is going to start her own business there. 

When we reached my bestie's place, we ate there, watched some skiing videos and ate again. It was maybe 12 pm when we were able to leave their house. I hadn't touched my phone there and when I was able to sit in the car, I opened my purse and took my phone. A new message. From Mark.

" Wow. Uhm Hi..sorry... I'm in a depression. Cant talk. Sorry. I don't want you to be sad...But. My life is getting worse. Pressured by parents.. Classmates... Teachers. Uh i miss korea.. Oh and my dream will never come true... I feel useless... I feel dead."

"And if i wont reply..maybe cuz i dont feel like talking. Sorry Hannah. Am really sorry. I just cant explain how i feel.."

"Alright.. hope youre doing okay.."

"Goodluck with school and everything. I miss you and am sorry for making you sad and worried"

"Just.. give me some time okay?"

"please"

"I beg you"

After reading his messages i bursted into tears. Luckily it was night and dark so my parents didn't notice me crying. I held my eyes closed the whole way back home and the tears were running down on my cheeks nonstop.

I wanted to respect Mark and that's why I didn't text him anymore at all. My life bacame sort of normal. I went to school, ate with parents, hanged out with friends after school but the fact that I cried myself asleep was miserable. Every single night I was just thinking about Mark and cried myself asleep.

Week and a half went like this. Finally it was a special day and I decided to break this silence between us: we have known each other exactly for a year. I sent him extremely long message about it in a bus. I finished writing when I was already on my bus stop. I pressed send and immediately I saw how the message was read. I walked towards my bike and I saw how he was writing the whole time while I was walking towards my bike. When I reached my bike, I received his message.

"OMFG. HI HANNAH. First of all im really impresset that you remember this date. Wow just wow. I wish i had your memory haha thank you so much for being a great friend for me. Word's can't explain the massive help youve done to me. I know a simple thank you isnt enough... Thats the least i could do actually ^///^ And am sorry. I'm really sorry for being mean, cheesy, weird, rude, careless and not replying most of the times. Sorry for causing problems. Sorry for not always being supportive. I am reaaallyyy sorry :( But the craziest thing is that you still want to be my friend :') You have an amazing personality. Youre really kind and beautiful no matter what you and people say. Youre just great like that. Also iwant to thank you for praying, thinking and caring about me. Thank you for letting me continue life on this Earth. Thank you. I could never imagine someone supporting me that much. I know ive said this, but Dang. Wow just wow. I want to keep repeatinf same words to keep your smile wide. Hope youre happy :) I will try to recover.. Your words mean a lot to me :3 <3"

His message made me so happy that I just kept smiling the whole way back home