All Along

Chapter Five

Chapter Five

”Sweetie, I think it’s time for you to go back to school.” My aunt said over breakfast.

“I could drive you today if you want. You can get dressed quickly and you’ll only be a little late.” She added.

I honestly didn’t think I have a choice and twenty minutes later we were in the car driving to school. I don’t know what to go. I’ve haven’t been there in a week. Everyone will be staring and teachers will mumble apologies. The girls will say their smart comments and walk away in their stupid stilettos. I am and will be in no mood for this today. But as asked I got dressed and here I am. I pulled on a pair of light washed jeans and a soft blue v neck with my sneakers.

When the boys first got famous people started sucking up to me. Many girls tried to get to them by using me but as they realized that wasn’t going to happen things changed. You can say I was excluded. Some still tried but quickly gave up. I became an outsider and to be honest I didn’t really care. I went to school, did my schoolwork and then walked or took a bus to my job at the grocery store. I didn’t need a big group of friends. I had Harry and the boys. And even though they weren’t around much, I still knew I had them.

At school, my predictions came true when I walked into my first class. Everybody turned to look at me and some girls snickered. During passing, one girl even said to her friend “I should feel bad; she lost the only boy ever interested in her.” Another added, “Yeah, poor girl. With Liam gone, none of the others will even pay attention to her”.

By the end of the day I was tired of it and more mentally drained than before. I was lonelier too.

I took out my phone and went to text Harry, only finding I already had one from him.

“Movie night tonight? I’ll bring your favorite. xx –H”

I replied without hesitation in about two seconds.

“Yes, eight. –E”

I took the bus home and went to sleep. I was tired and didn’t want to fall asleep on Harry later tonight. Two hours later, I woke up and decided to clean up a little. The house wasn’t messy but still. Then I did most of my homework. There was a lot I needed to catch on since I had missed a week. The teachers said they’d give me two weeks to catch up but I still wanted to get it done as soon as possible. I needed to keep myself distracted and busy.

By the time I was done it was already 7:35. I took a quick shower and put on black yoga pants and a white long sleeved shirt. I was getting hungry so I thought I’d ask Harry if he wanted me to order Chinese food. He replied to my text almost immediately.

“Already thought about it. It’s in the car. Be there soon. xx -H”

I smiled; he always knew what I would want. It never failed. But then again we used to do this a lot before. Before all the tours and stuff he’d come over and we’d watch movies until we couldn’t keep our eyes open anymore. Sometimes we ate pizza and sometimes we ordered Chinese. It depended on our mood. We did it once or twice after he began touring but it just got hard to do. Then after Liam and I…

I sighed, there it is again. Liam. It’s like the thought of him turned my stomach into knots. And it wasn’t in the way it used to. Before I’d get butterflies, now I just felt full of sorrow. I wondered if there was ever going to be a day I didn’t spend thinking of him. Wishing he was here. Wishing he would walk through the door, exclaiming “I missed you, love”. Imagining his lips or feeling his arms around me again. Just hearing his voice. That’s all I wanted. And not the radio or the recorded songs. Those just made me miss him even more. I wanted to hear him saying my name.