I'll Be The Fire That'll Catch You (Kellic)

Chapter nineteen (FINAL)

“Kellin, I’ll just leave your food here, kay?”

Pain. It has been more or less, a week since Vic & I ended whatever was going on between the two of us. We didn’t really talked about ending it or anything but for me, it was over.

One week. This has to be the most painful week of my life. I’ve never even dared to leave my room. I never opened my computer, which was totally different. For the first few days, I left my door unlocked but my mom would just come in and give me small talks about Vic & I. She told me that it was “wrong”. Not that she’s against the fact that we’re on the same gender but it’s just that, we would most probably become brothers in the near future.

I got too annoyed at her so I’ve decided to lock the door & never step out. I would grab the glass of water that she leaves outside my door from time to time but that’s it.
It’s actually a huge miracle; the fact that I’m still alive and functioning. Who would’ve thought that a weak person like me would survive a whole week without consuming anything but water.

Being alone in my room made me realize a lot of things.
One of it is that I could actually survive by myself. It’s not that sad being alone after all. Yes, the first few days was hell. I was crying uncontrollably. I really wanted to stop but images of Vic & I would randomly flashed in my mind & that would once again, flunk my emotions. But as more days passed, I was actually fine. In a way, I guess. I realized that if he didn’t really want me, why the hell would I push myself to him? It was very easy for him to just throw me away so why the hell not, right?

Also, I was discovering joy in the littlest things. I would spend a couple of hours just laying on my side, staring at the window. It helped me calm myself down a lot.

I don’t know what has gotten into me but, I was in a brighter mood today. I got up, fixed my bed for the first time in weeks & went straight away to the bathroom to take a quick shower.
After getting dressed and drying my hair a little, I left my room and picked up the tray of food that my mom left a little while ago.

Since I saw the food, I felt my stomach finally grumble. Though, I wasn’t in the mood to eat the food that my mom made me so I’ve decided to cook oatmeal instead.

“Finally, you’re out of your room!” I heard my mom shout as she entered the front door. I didn’t even realized that she went out of the house a while ago.
I gave her a small smile and shrugged my shoulders as I continued on looking for a small pot to use.

“Kellin, someone’s here to see you.” She once again spoke in a milder and calmer voice.
Great. The first time I’ve decided to go out of my room & someone decided to come & visit me. I might be in a brighter mood but I am sure as hell not in the mood to talk to anyone just yet.

“Hey, Kellin.” Mike greeted as he entered our house.
I felt my lips slowly turn into a smile. I was glad that it was Mike, not that I was expecting someone else though.

“Hey, how are you? Haven’t seen you in a while.” I gleefully greeted as turned and walked towards his direction.

“I should be the one asking you that.” He said in a nervous like expression. “Hey, um, can I talk to you in, um,”

“Uh, yeah sure.” I quickly got the hint since my mom was standing there, looking at the both of us. It was indeed kind of weird so I lead the way to my room.

“So, what’s up?” I asked as I closed the door behind me.

“I’d go straight to the point so, it’s Vic. He’s-“

“I don’t want to hear it, Mike. I don’t give a shit anymore.”
I was fuming in anger as soon as I heard his name. I was actually glad to see Mike but I didn’t want to hear anything about his brother.