A world I no longer know
I'm oblivious to the world
That I used to love
I remember memories
Sweet memories of childhood happiness
The days I didn't look in the mirror
With looks of pure disgust
The days I accepted myself
For who I was
Maybe I'm caving in
Like my concave stomach
My life crumbles
The poles that have supported it
Begin to crash and fall
To the ground
The hope that kept me high
Is like a balloon popped
Losing air
Falling faster than ever
To the ground
And shattering
Into fragments so tiny
That I can never piece back
Lost forever
My thoughts overcome me
And anorexia tells me
That she's my only friend
Stay strong
Stay skinny
She tells me
Maybe I didn't notice her
Malicious grin
And the twinkle in the eye
Of course she knows
Every time
That she'll always win
Sometimes I wonder
Why it ever started
Why she attacked me
Of all people
When there are so many
To chose from
One by one the scaffolding
That kept me fighting
Crashes
And I'm left
In my little ignorant place
Where I built walls around
So no one could ever get in
And all around me dust rises
And the remains of good times
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THIN ✔︎
PoetryShe's never had problems, until recently. Recently, her world has been falling apart, but from the inside out. Turned into a depressed girl with serious eating disorder problems, all she wants to do is let go of everything, and be thin. Lighter than...
