Hey readers: For those who thinking this will be a short poem... It isn't 😂
I let myself close my eyes
Lost in my thoughts
Deep in my own world
Far far away
So far from home
Yet so close
Memories flood my mind
It's the first time
That I've been able to unlock my past again
With sadness
And longing
I remember when I used to be happy
Free
And proud of who I was
Without worries: Carefree
Sand between my toes
Water beneath my feet
Wind blowing through my hair
Sun burning down on me
From the heavenly skies above
Ice-creams and Popsicles melting
Hot cocoa in my room
Rolling in the beautiful snow
Huddled around the fireplace
Studying
Bent over books
But all worth it in the end
Splashing around
In the crystal blue pool
Laughing and diving competitions
Reading forever
Curled up on the couch
Waiting until the words blur together
Learning to walk
My first baby steps
Captured on camera
First day of school
Happy and young
Pig-tails and dresses
And then how it all started
That led to where I'm ultimately today
Depressed and broken
How come all the bad things
Seem to happen to happy people?
Good people?
Maybe I deserved it
Maybe I didn't
But why did it happen to me of all people?
She crept in slowly
And I barely noticed at the start
That she was even there
Slowly she pushed
The old me away
As she conquered my brain
My thoughts
My emotions
My feelings
I couldn't stop her
She made my decisions
Took away the real me
She'd taken me
And when I could've stopped her
I didn't even know her presence
I wanted to be like a supermodel
To fit in with the popular girls
To have control over my life
But little did I know
That I didn't have the control
Anorexia did
It was like a monster that was unleashed in my mind
Calorie counting, food restriction
I was only eleven
Today
I'm still alive
Staying strong for three years
But how much longer
Can I stay a bag of bones
A walking skeleton?
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THIN ✔︎
PoetryShe's never had problems, until recently. Recently, her world has been falling apart, but from the inside out. Turned into a depressed girl with serious eating disorder problems, all she wants to do is let go of everything, and be thin. Lighter than...
