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It's Friday night
The night where other people my age
Are not trapped in the bathroom
Throwing up
It's the night where they
Hang out and party
But I'm at home
Alone
Thinking of the past
I need a break
A break of the constant cycle
That goes round and round
Every day
Just one night
Of no worrying
At all
Just one night
Where I'm not anorexia's puppet
One night to be free
Of everything and control
I can't stand it any longer
I just want to stop the pain
The temptation is too appealing
And I can't resist the feeling
I slip out into the chilly night
And shiver in my clothes
Feel the goosebumps rising
As I hurry to the back alley
Where no adults are allowed
There's a club down here
Run by
High school seniors
Who serve shots and alcohol on Friday nights
Just in time for two for one
Happy hour
All underage drinkers
I fit in just right
But they're not broken
They're not sad, depressed and anorexic
They're all happy
Drinking the night away
Laughing
And joking around
Having fun I'll never have
I stand in the smoky corner
Of the dark room sipping vodka
I breathe in the thick smell
Of cigarette smoke
And I smell the scent
Of sweat and bodies
I'm hidden in the shadows
Observing
I came here for reasons
To drink away my problems
To take anorexia's control away
At least for a night
To have no worries at all
To be free with no pain
I order a couple more drinks
And a guy
Buys me another round
We talk but my mind goes woozy
I realize I'm drunk
And I pass out
Like many others before
On the club couch.
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PoetryShe's never had problems, until recently. Recently, her world has been falling apart, but from the inside out. Turned into a depressed girl with serious eating disorder problems, all she wants to do is let go of everything, and be thin. Lighter than...
