Between Sky & Earth !

Chapter 9

I am sure one day I will find some one who will love me with his whole heart and will do anything to see me smile.

I am going to new city with new hopes and leavening behind all broken parts I will build a life for me which is worth living.

I got up 4 in the morning by constant beeping sound of text received, cursed under my breath and took my phone to read the text

Unknown No...In the past or the future I too haven't done it myself for anyone else.

Still you doing this to me? Good Luck. I make my peace now. U never considered me a BFF.

Unknown No: I had a made up, fake family and now a made up friend too.

No: Text 3 I would have been happy if you really were my friend. I wouldn't have traded it for the world or heaven.

After reading the text I zoned out and was wondering will I ever have a friend or family who will not blame me for anything bad and own up to their mistakes. Ramond was one such person.

I stood by him and supported him but all he did was call me a whore because I refuse to be friends with benefits kind of relation with him.

I personally never believed in fooling around all I ever wanted was a pure friendship, when I became his friend he practically spread rumors about him and me I thought may be he is going through bad break up that is why he has done that but I guess I was wrong, I was nothing but a conquest for him which people use to think is unachievable so he fooled me with his friendship.

Thank god I got into my senses just in time. I always loathed men who abuse women. When I did not bear my own father then how can I trade my self respect for any thing in the world.

I left that company because all the time people use to gossip behind my back because what he had spread rumors about me. I still remained his friend because I know how it feels to be alone, how it feels to have no friends to call and no family to turn to when you really need someone to be by your side.

But all he did was think of me as some cheap trash, I even expected me to do things which his girlfriends use to do that is to beg him for his forgiveness.

I will never lower my self esteem so low for any man in the entire universe.

But as I always believed that all the bad people who come into your life teach you

Some lesson and I have fair share of such people who have been a great lesson in my life.

I have friends who betrayed me back stabbed me but see here I am still going strong no one can break my spirit.

Today after almost 15 days later when my mother raised her hand on me, she offered me food, which I accepted, I do not wish to be the one creating the issues because if I do not accept it I will be blamed that I shunned their efforts.

Beep beep beep beep.......

Again that agonizing sound of text received....

Msg 1 You want to rush me more faster towards ending my life and I am not disappointing you. I swear each day I make worse for myself than the previous day.

Msg 2 : if you only knew me even a little bit, you should have known pretty well what I did to myself when a friend left me. But who cares.

Msg 3: this suffering of mine is a result of sins in my past before you because I never did any wrong to you to deserve this. But I take it as gifts from you miss thanks.