Between Sky & Earth !

Chapter 4

him tomorrow and never have came back to this house, But my bad fortune will not end here, since I have still to suffer in this house with these people.

I am having a terrible headache, from over thinking, he just said it again, that I am a failure, my current job I have because of his mercy,

I really need to go from here, I need to find a job quick, because this all is overbearing for me I am at the verge of braking,

Last night I realized one thing again that I have to depend on one person in life that is myself, no friend or family can be their when I really need them. Again I am face to face with the reality that I can not trust any man for anything.

I am better of alone then be with someone and suffer like this, having parents and when they behave like strangers towards you, not even bit ready to accept as I am then I surely do not need such parents, people who are orphan are much lucky at least they have illusion, their life would have been better with parents, my illusion just got busted again, not that I was not ware but I am fool enough to go through same pain again and again.

Again same thing is being repeated with me they made me alone , I never was, am or ever will be part of their perfect family. They never wanted and time and again they have proved that I am not required in this family. I don't have single person in my life whom I can tell what I feel, I think I have to fight this world alone and face my demons alone,

When your own people whom you think are your own when they hurt you, shatter your life in front of your eyes, no pain is deeper then this.

I have to move out of this house before 30th of this month, I can not tolerate this much humiliation staying in this house according to this man.

They just want to break my spirit & will but they will never be successesful

Since Diwali night a friend of mine or rather I should say former friend of mine started texting me, last I spoke to him he abused me and said I am a whore, when in reality he lied about practically everything, I made him my friend but what he wanted was to getting laid with me, when that did not happen he label me as whore, again he is back to his tactics, of showing concerns about me, claiming how much he loved and cared for me, I was alone but he did not make any pass on me, he is a sick mentality basterd he can stoop to any level, Not very long ago he claimed how much his former fuck buddies or girlfriends or whoever loved him, they might deserve to get abused as they where common sluts getting laid with random guys but I am not one of them, I have given him enough chances to correct himself, he only blaims me that I left him, but in reality I have to make a choice between friend and my self respect I choose my self respect.