Secret Admirer || Phan

.chapter 13.

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Phils POV

'D' That letter ran through my mind all day. Is that his way of giving me a hint on who he is? Because it really doesn't narrow it down. There are so many people who's name begins with 'D'. It's basically impossible to figure out who it could be. But maybe that's what he's trying to do, make it impossible so I will stop trying to find out who he is.

Why doesn't he want me to know though? Is he worried that I won't be attracted to him? Does he think he's too ugly or something? Because I couldn't care less on how he looked. He's made me feel beautiful, special, loved, and that's all I want in a person. He's perfect in my eyes, even if I don't know who he is yet.

School was a bit strange today. I mean I didn't get beaten up. I walk past Dan and Pj and Chris but they didn't do anything. Pj and Chris glared at me, obviously wanting to hurt me but Dan gave me a small smile. That was also playing on my mind a little. I mean, why the sudden change of heart? Not that I'm complaining or anything..

I also hate to admit it but I find Dans smile adorable. It's really cute and he has a dimple which makes it even cuter, to be honest he is extremely attractive. No. I need to shut up. Dan Howell is the worst person and he is horrible. I hate him so much.

I will always hate him.

On a positive note, I actually made a friend today. He's called Troye and he recently moved from Australia. He's also gay and is very kind. He told me that I looked cute. I may have blushed a little. But he's the first friend I've had in a while and I'm really hoping he won't leave me to become popular. I don't think he will though. He sat with me in all the lessons we had together and at break and lunch. I glanced over at Dan and for some reason he was staring back. But he had a glint of something in his eye. I think it was...jealousy? No it couldn't be. Why would Dan be jealous of Troye and me being friends? I'm just being ridiculous.

Getting home from school, I realised my dad wasn't in. Thank god.. I went up to my room and messaged 'D'.

To: D
Hey! Xxx

He replied almost instantly but he didn't seem himself..

From: D
Hi.

To: D
What's up? You don't seem yourself? Xxx

From: D
Nothing. Don't worry about it. Who was that boy you were hanging out with today? I haven't seen him around before.. X

To: D
Oh I made a new friend haha, he's called Troye and he just moved here from Australia so he's new. He seems really nice :) xxx

From: D
Oh right x

To: D
Are you...jealous? ;) xxxx

From: D
Yes...I am a little..xx

I giggled to myself at his response. I found it cute how he was jealous that I was hanging out with another boy, that he was being slightly obsessive over me.

To: D
Don't be, we are just friends haha I promise <3

From: D
Good, I don't want some random boy to just come and steal you from me. You're my Philly and I'm not up for sharing :( <3

I blush at the nickname , biting my lip as my smile grows more. I just want to know who this person is right now to be honest. I want to be able to see them in person.

To: D
Well technically I'm not yours ;) Not until you tell me who you are :p <3

From: D
You will find out who I am soon. I promise Philly. <3

To: D
I hope so. I just want to know who you are. xxxxx

We texted each other for hours, until I eventually started to fall asleep. He messaged me a goodnight message and I fell asleep, blushing and smiling to myself.

Whoever this person is, they make me feel emotions I didn't even know existed. And I don't know whether to be scared by that or love it.