Secret Admirer || Phan

.Chapter 3.

Im so bad at updating im so so sorry, but here is an update for you all! -A

Phils POV

Great. Another day of complete and utter hell. I have to face Dan and his stupid friends again. Im just sick of being told the same things over and over. I get it. Im a freak, im worthless and I deserve to die. They dont have to tell me that, I already know.

I climb out if bed and get changed,  looking in the mirror. Ew. I wish I looked good. I just look fat and disgusting. Am I even worth oxygen? I doubt it but here I am. I dont even see the point of me being here. No one would care if I were gone. Hell, no one would notice..

I go down stairs , making myself some coffee and watching crappy TV. Well I say crappy but if you watch it long enough,  The Jeremy Kyle Show actually gets kind of funny.  Wow, ive definitely hit rock bottom right? After I have drank my coffee and watched some TV , I realise I have to set off for school.

If there is a god , please let him be with my soul today..Because im probably going to get killed.

I put on my shoes and put my headphones on, the sound of Remembering Sunday , drowning out the voices in my head that tell me horrible things. I walk to school, seeing the rusty bronze gates all too soon for my liking. I walk through the gates and just like magic , it feels as if my mood drops lower than it already is, if that is even possible.  I swear schools have the power to make anyones day even worse.

I enter the building, surrounded by many people who I despise greatly. Maybe one day I will muster up the nerves to punch them all in the face. Yeah I doubt that. But I can dream cant I.

I walk past Satan himself , hitting the floor before I even had chance to look at him.

"D-Dan..please l-leave me alone..J-just for today..p-please.."

Obviously he ignores me and continues to hurt me , along with his other friends. Like I said, may god be with my soul on this day.

After what seems like an eternity of punches and kicks and insults. It finally ends. I look up at Dan , and I swear I saw a glimpse of some emotion in there. Guilt maybe?  No..it was something else, but I couldnt quite think of it.

I get up, getting used to the pain and walks to my locker, opening it up and noticing something I have never seen in there before.  A note.

I get it out, opening the envelope and reading it.

Phil,

You look gorgeous today, as usual. Please try to not let the bullying get to you , I know its hard and I hate the thought of you getting hurt. But dont believe anything they say. You are perfect. <3

From
-?

I looked at the note in disbelief , looking around to see if anyone would own up to this. I can feel how much im blushing,  I probably look like a tomato.

I wonder who wrote the note. Do I know them? Is this some sort of joke? Probably, but I really want to be hopeful. Maybe they really mean what they said. . Gorgeous. . Perfect. Ive never been told I am those things before..

Thats because it isnt true you worthless shit

Ahh there we are. Those voices always trying to put me down. Its working but not as quuckly as usual. I cant believe one simple note has me almost gaining confidence..But I have to keep in mind that this could be a joke. A sick twisted joke.

I need to find out who wrote the note.

I need to find out now. 

Before it drives me mad.

So im sorry for the crappy short chapters and stuffs , but im not really good at long chapters so all of the chapters will probably be short. But hopefully less crappy c:

Ill update asap

Bye guys , stay rad!
-A