The hammering had toned down after a while and the vicious taunts too. Now a wholly of pathetic pleas flooded in. As if I'd be foolish enough to fall for that.
But my fingers twitched with rising restlessness. I fidgeted against the urge to actually march to that door and let that bounder in. His pleas were strangely tugging at the tender regions of my hardened heart. I couldn't help but pace restlessly back and forth. Not realising my actions were taking me right up against the front door. I found myself leaning against it and listening keenly to the husky timbre of his voice promising all sorts of falsehood to get me to open the damn door.
The urge to see him grew too much to resist and I found myself rushing to get the locks undone and to swing the door open to... face his rage infused face.
I took a hurried step back then. And amplified it with several paces more. Till I was all but running away from his swiftly advancing form. With a frightened yelp, I turned to do actually that, only to have him lunge across the distance between us and haul me right up against him.
His lips settled hungrily on mine. And I couldn't hold back the urge to give in anymore that I could have kept the door closed on him. I met his famished lips with my own. And the sensuous heat between us flickered flagrantly back and forth as we each fought to take command of the volatile kiss our parched lips shamelessly indulged in.
"Did you hear what I said?" Eric breathed out hoarse with want as his lips slowly moved away from mine. "What I would do to you if you didn't open that damn door?"
I mutely shook my head. I didn't think I actually heard a word. It was his tone more than anything that worked against me. Also the need to actually hear his words. But mostly it was my need to see him. To be in his arms. To kiss him.
I stared hungrily up at him now. And rather adored the black look of death he wore so attractively onnhis features. He couldn't look ugly even if he tried. He could behave ugly though. But I saw the beauty even in that. I was a hopeless lost cause. He would do well to simply be rid of me. I mean who needed a clingy emotionally driven mad woman's undying infatuation.
This couldn't be healthy.
I shouldn't have come back.
God knows just how long it took me to get over Jace. Now I was stuck like a leach over Eric. This couldn't be healthy.
" What? What is it?" He asked suddenly watching the play of emotions across my face.
I shook my head helplessly but told him anyway," I am afraid I may want you... too much."
There was a pause over that but then he said," Well you have a strange way of showing it. First I catch you exchanging kisses with that hoe Nikki, next you're running off with her god damned uncle. Then when I drag you back here, you all but bulk at fucking me. Now you locked me out of my own bloody apartment..."
I stared up at him in shock over that. But he wasn't finished.
"What part of wanting me too much was all of that? Huh?" He reiterated that last with a rough shake. My teeth almost rattled.
Put it that way I could see he had much to vent on. But than so did I... didn't I?
I realised shockingly he could be right. The slights I had charged him capable off hadn't been acted on me. It was his past that had haunted me. I had known, always did, the exact step by step process of his so called relationships. I knew the awkward time from the point of bedding was due and had done my best to avoid it.
That was how he'd always done it. I had merely beaten him to the chase. I removed myself out of the equation just as I had removed all those other women in his life. Only this time I never waited for his instructions to do so. This time I had simply taken that bold initiative myself.
Was that what peak his interest? Was that what sent him after me? I couldn't deny my need to know the truth any longer?
"I merely preempted your desires and rid myself from your life. It was my last service as your PA. I knew the drill. Having had to sort out your nany one night stands in the past. I simply acted before you told me to. Is this why you're irked with me? That I simply acted first?"
