It was time to pack. So I got into it and tried to set aside what happened the day and night before. It had been a horried day on all counts.
I couldn't believe he would just take me like that without a thought to my feelings so brutally as if I meant nothing to him.
I wiped away a tear. He knew it had been my first. Why would he do that? To make it so painfull rather then not. But I did get turned on after and when I came the pleasure had been unimaginable so..so worth it.
But still. And he simply upped and dissapeared this morning without a word. His signature move for a one night stand. I coudn't believe I had actually gone through with it eveb knowing him for what he was. Especially knowing him the way I did.
It was my fault entirely. Now I had just a couple of days more of facing him in the office before I could make a run for it. Not to Patty's though. I didn't think I could stand to see her now or ever. So much has been a lie, was a lie. I cannot simply turn a blind eyes at it and move in as if it all hadn't happened.
I stopped by the police station on the way to work that day. Finalising things took time. Then as I stepped into office later, Nikki was rushing in to greet me like her long lost love. She threw her arms around me and embrased me energetically but her expression was in utter contrast to her reactions. She looked sorrowfull, aghast over what transpired between me and Mark and yet she could not help coping a feel at the same time, runninh her hands over me.
I wrenched free from her hold and muttered shortly that I was fine. It was time I stopped living in a romantic bubble of self-illusion. There were no heros in this world. No prince charming and most importantly no true love. There were only the users and abusers and then their victims.
I set about getting through the shitload if work for that day and guiding my replacement at the sametime. It was hours after when Eric slammed through to my office and demanded without preliminaries.
You are coming with me to Brunei tonight. We will be meeting with the Sheikh on a deal that I cannot entrust over to anyone else. It will be your last task with us. I won't hold you back from leaving after. Consider it you thanks to me for saving youbfrom that leech and then for showing you what a real fuck was.
And with that he slammed out of my office and back to his own. Leaving me sitting there seething with rage.
